Mornings

Posted By Mark on August 11, 2010

 I guess that when I wake each day, the thoughts of the day are established without any particular effort on my part, but I wonder sometimes if I can control these waking thoughts? I have always found myself driven by inspiration, by inspired understanding. I awake this morning driven to act, feeling the need to perform at a new level! Where shall I direct this inspiration?

 In life, as in my writing, there have been regular periods of uninspired inactivity. On my best days, I try to understand how I can be so focussed one day, and completely lost the next; how my mind allows me to fail my expectations. On my worst days, I wallow in that place where I have become comfortable, sitting still, even laying lethargic on the couch. Why can’t I be inspired to greatness everyday?

 Too many failures have led me to this place of disaffection. If I could look back objectively, and being human this is very difficult, I would probably be able to see a pattern of disinterest created by negativity. So much negativity in our lives; how are we supposed to remain inspired for long? Failures are often only failures, because I failed to finish the task. My cautionary nature refrains from releasing the other reasons for my failures…

 I view my life as subjectively as one could expect, and I see long periods of inspired activity, followed by periods of disaffection. At times this seems directly tied to my romantic endeavours, and yet I cannot fault my companions, nor tie the issues to them. Life has a way of drowning inspiration in a sea of disillusionment. Am I dismayed that our society does not inspire me? Does it seem that I am restricted in my activities by the structures of the world in which I live? Subjectively, I see our hedenism as the cause of my disaffection, and yet, am I not responsible for me?

 Step up to the plate this morning, bat in hand prepare for the sinker this day may throw, but never, never fail to step up! Am I thinking of something new in my life? Someone new is here with us now, and perhaps, perhaps he needs to see someone willing to step up everyday? I cannot fail to rise to the occasion, not when it may mean the world to someone who has seen too little inspired action; not when I have failed him so many times, so many ways! Do I step up to impress him, would that work? I need to step up, because I need to not fail today; perhaps I cannot succeed, but I do not wish to accept defeat. Feed me! Inspired one; feed me!

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch6

Posted By Mark on June 8, 2010

 The child was sitting on his bed reading silently when he heard the phone ring. For some reason, he knew that he was the reason for the call. The child had had a trying week at school; for some reason, the teacher had not called on him to read once during the whole week, and the other children had begun to notice. He always tried to escape notice, and now the teacher was making an exception for him. Trying to resist feeling resentment, the child raised his hand several times to answer a question. This only seemed to make matters worse, as this drew more attention to him.

 The mother answered the phone and was surprised to hear the teacher’s voice. She had not expected another communication with her so soon. As the teacher related her concerns and observations, the mother was struck by two separate thoughts: the teacher genuinely cared about the child, and there was something different about him. She had known that the child would be getting extra reading assignments, and that the teacher would be evaluating his performance differently, but this seemed to be having a negative affect on the child. The mother was unsure of how she would deal with the issues at hand, but knew that she had to do, or say something.

 The child did not know that his mother had spoken to his teacher about his reading, so he was confused by the sudden shift of emphasis. He had been given a couple of special tests on his reading assignments, which he got good marks on. The teacher had begun showing particular attention to his reading and writing skills; well he could not write yet, but he was printing very well. She seemed to want him to read different stories suddenly, and he had extra reading to do this weekend, which did not sit well with him. One of the children had said that he was the teacher’s pet today, and he did not understand that concept.

 The mother was perplexed. She had spoken with the teacher on Sunday, with the hope that her revelation of his reading skills would assist her son. This had not had the desired effect; he had been very quiet the last few evenings, and today he had went directly to his room after lunch. The teacher’s call suggested that there was something more going on than she had initially thought. The mother contemplated what she should do, how should she broach the subject, and would the child understand her concern? She did not want to make things worse, but she was very disturbed. The mother was also ashamed that she had not noticed that he had ceased taking new flowers to school.

 The child responded immediately to his Mom’s call, and ran down stairs. It did not occur to him that it was odd that he was almost eager for this confrontation. Without knowing the cause, the child assumed that he had done something wrong, and the sooner he faced it, the sooner he would be past the situation. He did not understand his eagerness. The child stopped dead when he saw his Mom’s face; something very bad had happened. He remembered the last time he had seen that look on an adults face, the day that his neighbor had died.

 The mother was thinking about her son’s changing actions when he came into the dining room. She could not know what her face looked like, but her concern had a direct impact on the child. He stopped and stood very still, when he looked at her. He opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out, and she wondered what her face must look like to give him such pause. The mother indicated that he should sit, and he immediately crawled up on one of the chairs. He still sat very quietly, looking his questions at the mother. The mother did not know now how to begin, she did not want him to think that he was in trouble, but her pause was giving rise to anxiety.

 Not knowing what he had done wrong, the child began to feel anxious. He could not remember doing anything bad, but he was always a little confused about the rules of the adult world. They seemed to change without notice, and sometimes he wondered if there were any rules. His Mom opened her mouth to speak, and then closed it again, seeming to have trouble voicing her thoughts. The child wondered what terrible thing had happened, what had he done to cause such a reaction from his Mom. He suddenly wanted to make her happy, to say or do something, which would make her smile.

 “The teacher just called me.” She began with no further thought about the subject. “She told me that she was concerned that you were not bringing in any more flowers.” The mother paused at this point, because she was again unsure of how to continue. There was not a simple way to ask the questions that the teacher had asked. She did not want to push the child deeper into a depression, if that was what was happening.

 The child did not understand the importance of the contest. He had thought it a fun way to gain knowledge of nature, but had lost interest in it, when he realized that it would involve taking things from nature, which were better viewed in that environment. The child did not think that it was something, which he would get in trouble for not doing. Many of the other children had not competed at all. The child’s confusion showed on his young face, and brought a reaction from his Mom.

 “I just want to know why you stopped taking flowers to school?” The mother asked with concern. “You seemed to be enjoying the contest, and now you have stopped taking part.” She took a half step toward her son, while speaking the final words.

 The child was cautious in answering the question. He shrunk backward in his chair when his Mom moved toward him. “I don’t know Mom. It was fun at first, but now I’d rather just leave the flowers where I find them. I’ll still pick some for you, but most flowers are not nearly as nice picked, as they are in the woods.” The child hesitated in his answer, and for some reason decided not to say that the contest did not seem fair. He could not understand why he did not finish his answer, but the child had begun to think that all adults would be confused by his logic of right and wrong.

 Looking down at her son, the mother realized that her son was telling her something more than he had said. The contest had lost his interest, and it was not simply because he thought he might lose. She wondered again at his sudden change the previous weekend, and could not quite understand what had happened. He had always been a serious boy, and it was entirely possible that he had just decided not to compete anymore. The mother wanted to believe a simple answer, because that would ease her concern a great deal, but she thought back to Saturday morning, and did not know what had happened. She had experienced a lot in her time, and yet that incident stood out as unusual.

 The situation was not going to be resolved without further discussion, this the child comprehended without really knowing why. A tear was striving to form in the corner of his eye, and without knowing the cause he promptly wiped it away. There seemed to be no reason for tears, the child was obviously not in trouble, and his Mom just seemed to be concerned about a change in his behavior. He did not want to give his Mom more reason for concern than he already had. The child tried to smile to waylay her fears, but found it nearly impossible. An unknown sadness filled him, and he struggled with an anguish that he did not understand.

 The mother saw a tear form in her son’s eye, watched as he brushed it away, and then felt a peculiar rush of sadness wash over her. She hoped that it was a simple matter of empathizing with her son; the child did appear to be growing more emotional by the moment, but she was not so sure. As a caring parent, it was not out of character for the mother to become sad when her child was sad. The mother could not understand why she felt as she did. The child was growing sadder with every moment, and she did not know if she could help with the problem. Without thinking, the mother stepped forward and lifted the child into her arms to comfort him.

 The child did not welcome his Mom’s comfort, because it brought on more emotions than he could withstand at the moment. As he felt himself crashing, he thought that he should not resent his Mom’s comfort. The child lost tract of time. He did not know how long he stood there, but he was very tired when he was done. The child felt the exhaustion of an overwhelming effort; sometimes it was easier to forget the pain than to acknowledge it.

 Natas wished that there were some other way to release the anguish in his soul. The child did not really understand the depths of his pain. His birth had been a tragedy, and time would pass before that could be acknowledged. In the mean time, the child would experience periodic releases of energy through various forms. Natas hoped that it would not be too much of a trial. The child had enough trials with everyday life, without the added pressures of his sorrow. Man had lost his place in the world, and there seemed little that could be done about it.

 Neither forgot the events of that day, and neither chose to speak of them. It was probably for the best, considering the heightened confusion that it had caused. The mother and the child were not able to accept the depth of their connection, and yet there was something that always kept them close. Perhaps there was some deeper meaning to the events of these three weeks, but neither parent nor child really understood. Natas was not able to explain this to the child. He was as yet unable to speak, and the infant had too little control of his reactions.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch 5

Posted By Mark on June 8, 2010

 Sunday mornings were always a bit rushed, with preparations made for the lunch to follow the morning service. The child always tried to be quick in getting dressed for Church, although he did not like wearing the starchy shirts with tight collars. His Mom did not ask much from him, for all that she did for him, so he wore the clothes and did not complain. Something told him that he should be able to wear jeans and t-shirts to Church, but that was just a silly complaint. He wondered why his brothers never went with them, he understood that it was boring, but he enjoyed it just the same.

 The mother hurried about with Sunday preparations. As hard as she tried, there always seemed to be something not ready when she left. The mother always felt guilty for not being in a worshipful mood when she left for Sunday service. It seemed that she was never prepared for church until after she arrived. She hoped that her older boys would get up for church this week, but assumed that she would be disappointed. There was no way she could require them to attend something their father had no interest in attending. She had no desire to change how he felt about things, but she wished that he would support her desire to offer them options.

 The child walked outside when he was ready. This was the simplest way to show that he was ready, while staying out of the way. He thought that life would be easier if they held Church in the afternoon. The child sat down on the step, tracing lines in the dust on the ground with his fingers. Two kittens drew his attention with their game of tag. After a few minutes, he found himself holding one of the kittens, and petting two more. The child was dusty, and covered in hair when his Mom came out of the house.

 The mother was momentarily at a loss for words at the sight of the child. “Goodness, Child, you’re a mess ” She tried not to shout. “You know better than this  We have no time for you to change out of those clothes ” To emphasize her point, their drive pulled in the driveway at that moment. The mother hurriedly dusted the child off, tsking all the while. “You can wear at a parent’s patience, young man ” She spoke fondly, grinning through her frustration.

 The child yielded to his mother’s prodding; he was ashamed of himself, and wished that he could show more self-control. The child was quiet when he climbed into the back seat of the car. “A beautiful morning…” He only listened to the beginning of his Mom’s conversation with the neighbor. He noticed a stain on his left knee, from where he had knelt of the grass. There were dirty spots on both of his thighs, which he tried to brush off to no avail. He knew that he was an embarrassment for his Mom, and did not know how he could make it better. The neighbor would not speak of it, because she was a polite woman, but it did not really matter. He knew what people would think, and that made him sad.

 The mother silently berated herself for having been so hard on the child. While she continued with talk of the weather, a very pleasant conversation with the neighbor lady who often volunteered to drive her to Church, she thought about the message she had just given to her son. God did not care about appearances, and she knew that she should not either, that was a social construction. She mused at herself, while the neighbor spoke of various members of the congregation. It was difficult to be a proper model for the child everyday, and that was what she expected of herself. She was responsible for providing a proper model of Christianity for the child, a task at which she had so often failed.

 The child was still worrying at the soiled spots when the pine trees came into view. He wondered again at the age of the stately trees, something he had always thought about, and did not know why. The child thought briefly about asking his Mom, but he did not wish to bother her this morning. She had been so comforting yesterday, and he had not rewarded her well with his foolishness today. He wondered if the trees had been there when the church was built, or if the builders had planted them. They stood so straight and tall, suggesting an image of Christian soldiers, armed with their beautiful needles that never seemed to drop. He sensed a tension that he could not comprehend; something about that image drew his mind to other thoughts.

 The mother took her son’s hand as they walked from the car to the church doors. He was very somber, and this made her feel even worse for her harsh words. The child had had a trying week, and she felt rather foolish for her frustration; he was such an easy child most of the time that she sometimes forgot how young he still was. She thought briefly about taking him to the bathroom to wash his hands, and then chose not to bother; let him come to the Lord as he was, dirty hands and all.

 The child’s mind raced as he approached the front doors of the church. He was a mess, and people would be looking at him. He hoped that his Mom would take him to the bathroom, so he could clean up a little. The child wondered why he did not see the minister’s car in the parking lot today. He was always there early, and nearly always the last to leave; he seemed to like to greet the congregation as they entered and left the sanctuary. He had noticed the teacher’s car in the lot, and hoped that she did not scold him again for his behavior on Friday.

 The teacher came over to them as soon as they entered the sanctuary. She smiled as the child looked up at her; there did not seem to be any animosity directed at her, which was what she had most feared. She had not forgotten his temperament on Friday, and she hoped that she had something to offer, which would offset his disappointment. The child was such a bright student, and so well behaved normally that she had been dismayed by his reaction. The teacher had hoped that her approach would be pleasantly accepted. The mother looked at her with the obvious concern of a parent who was aware of a pending conflict, both alert and protective.

 The child tried not to appear anxious or upset, the teacher was a nice lady, who often spoke to his Mom at Church. “I have a secret for you ” The child was surprised that she spoke to him, and not his Mom. “There are a couple of different flowers, which grow in the cemetery that have not been brought to school yet.” The teacher smiled and glanced at his Mom while she spoke. There was something unusual about the way she had spoken; it seemed to him that this was not really fair to the other students, and yet the teacher was always fair. “I think that you might be able to find some star flowers today, and I will let you look around for the other flower, to see if you can find something new?”

 Looking from the teacher to her son and back again, the mother was surprised; this was not what she had expected from her. The mother thought that she would bring up the topic of his reading after the service, while the child was occupied looking for flowers. The child did not appear to be as excited about the concept as he once would have been, but that might be simply because of the situation. She was certain that he would catch the fever once he began exploring the cemetery. At this point he might well be occupied with the incident she had caused; he had been very quiet on the way to Church.

 The child thought about going out to look for flowers, and then he thought about Sunday school, and he wondered if it was wrong to prefer nature to Church. He considered asking his Sunday school teacher, and then he thought about asking the teacher, and then he thought maybe he should just ask his Mom. The child did not understand why he thought that his Mom was the only person who would not get upset by that question; something just told him that the question was not likely to be received very well. He always felt so much closer to God when he was alone in the woods, than he did when he was at Church.

 Choosing a pew close to the pulpit, the mother ushered the child into his seat. He always seemed to pay more attention to the service when they sat near the front. The mother felt the eyes of a dozen members of the congregation upon her, and felt ashamed of her own reaction. She immediately caught herself looking at the soiled spots on her son’s pants, and berated herself again for her harsh words that morning. The mother felt the heat of protective instinct, and hurried her son into his seat; no one would say a word to him, but her actions were not conscious. She thought again that she should not be trifling over appearances in the house of God.

 The child obediently climbed into his seat, and wondered over his Mom’s hurry. He worried that he had embarrassed her, and that made him feel bad. The deacon stood near the pulpit, as though protecting the holiest place in the sanctuary. He did not seem very happy this morning, but that was not unusual, the deacon was rarely happy at Church, seeming to take it as a personal affront if anyone seemed too happy at Church. The child thought that this was wrong for some reason, but he did not know why, he thought that most of the congregation were far too serious when they came to Church. He wondered if they thought God was always this serious? The child did not believe that God was so strict, because he had given people the ability to laugh for a reason.

 The mother listened to the announcements without reaction, until the deacon mentioned that the minister was taking a short leave of absence. She wondered if there was something more to it than a minister’s desire for contemplation. The deacon told the congregation that it had been decided that he would lead the service for a few weeks rather than seek the services of another minister. The mother thought that they could benefit from the fresh ideas of a younger minister, and immediately felt guilty for her judgment of the deacon. She had a long way to go before she would be able to give her son a proper example of Christian charity.

 The child found himself falling asleep during the sermon again. The deacon’s voice was very dry, as though he was being drug through a sand dune. Ashamed of his inability to remain awake, the child was quick to wake, as the congregation stood for the final hymn of the service. He anticipated a trip to the cemetery after the service, and hoped that his Mom would come with him. He would be sure to stop by his Uncle’s grave, and say a few words to him. The child did not think it unusual that he spoke to a dead person he had never met; his Mom spoke so highly of her Uncle that the child thought it was similar to speaking to God. He had never met God either, and he knew that other people had met his Uncle.

 The mother smiled at her son when he asked her to go with him to the cemetery. “This time I think you should explore on your own.” She said emphatically. As the child turned away, the mother felt a pang of guilt. He did not look as pleased about the prospect as he had, but the mother wished to speak to the teacher for a moment. She wanted to talk to her about his reading, and find out why she had told the child about the flowers in the cemetery. Anytime someone acted out of character, there was a reason, and the mother intended to find out what the reason was. She was not concerned at all that this seemed overly protective; a mother’s job was to protect and nurture her son.

 Natas was relieved when he got outside. It was not really the church that bothered him, but the way the congregation seemed to dull over the duration of the sermon. It made him think of sleep, and he desired to go outside; far better to walk among the gravestones where there was true death, than to sit among the living while they were lulled close to death. The child was adapting to his presence quicker than expected, and taking on many of his attributes, reacting to his responses. The time would come when the two were nearly one, but that time was far off yet.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch 4

Posted By Mark on June 1, 2010

 The child walked up into the woods that Friday evening, and forgot to ask his Mom to come along. It was not because he sought solitude, but simply because he did not remember the previous evening’s excitement. The stirring was upon him, and his thoughts were beyond those simple emotions. The child was changing. It could not be said that he was conscious of his distinct attitude, but he did possess a new vision. Too much had occurred for the new sense to subside quickly.

 He walked along the same path as always, habits take a long time to change. The steps were no more methodical, and there was no outward appearance to distinguish his actions. He still took note of each new sprout of life, each new blossom and leaf. His step was only a little more cautious than before, with some small consideration given to wary steps. The child rarely tripped, but he became conscious of stumbling. Such a small change was hardly worthy of note; the child did not realize its significance.

 Seeking new life became a driving force in his mind. Each new blossom identified an emotional response, and even flowers began to be catalogued according to new criteria. The child took note of their scents, coloration, and distinct design, all of which were unusual for any child. He realized a few things about some of these flowers: trilliums stink, violets are too delicate to pick, apple blossoms are not really all that attractive, but smell very good, and lady slippers do not really have a scent at all. These observations were not disturbing to the child, but did have a lasting impact on his appreciation of them.

 After spending some time exploring his little spot, and the close proximity, the child sat down to enjoy the comfort he found here. He was not really tired, nor did he sit for the purpose of contemplation. The child just found a comfortable spot leaning against one of the trees, which grew around the edge of the clearing. He had a sense of renewal when he let his mind wander. He did not have any particular thoughts or feelings to digest, so this moment was a way to rejuvenate his soul. The child did not understand why he came here, or why he was so comfortable, but it was something he desperately needed to do.

 Time passed without notice. The child did not notice the sun setting in the West, nor did he notice the creeping shadows in his little spot. The evening was so comforting that spring’s chill did not register either. He did not fall asleep really, as he was conscious of his surroundings, and he could not be said to be meditating, because that required concentration. He fell into a state of peacefulness, which was not comprehended. An hour passed, and he did nothing but sit; birds came near without realizing that he was there, for he was silent. A rabbit hopped into the clearing, noticed the boy sitting there, and quickly hopped away. The child smiled at the wildlife, and felt the quiet peace of God holding him.

 When darkness came, he was alerted to his surroundings, and to the lateness of the hour. The child’s mother had come looking for him. She had wanted to let him deal with his experience in his own way, because that was best, but she had become concerned with nightfall. She was relieved when he came into sight, and tried not to appear too concerned. He had had a difficult day, and she did not want to make it more difficult. There would be no words of her worry, or of the lateness of the hour, it being nearly nine at night. She had simply come to bring him in from the cold.

 The child looked up from his seat, and began to gather himself. “Mom  I’m sorry, I lost track of the time ” The child was preparing for a scolding, and was somewhat confused by the reaction he got. His Mom was a kind person, but she did scold when he did something wrong, and she did not scold?

 The mother was surprised to see her son’s face. It was nearly glowing in the dim moonlight. There seemed to be something different about him that she could not quite understand. “It is past your bedtime.” She found herself saying. “You can come back up here tomorrow if you like, but you need to come in and go to bed.” Despite the words, her voice held no anger, no disappointment, and no worry. She found herself wondering why he seemed so content?

 Again the child wondered at his Mom. He did not understand why he was not in trouble for staying out so late. He knew it was against the rules for him to be out after dark without an adult. “I didn’t mean to stay out so late, Mom, but it was so nice just sitting here that I didn’t want to leave.” He did not realize how unusual what he was saying was. The child was seven years old, and many things were not comprehensible at that point. In fact, neither of them really understood what this encounter meant, and years would pass before even a small indication of its significance would surface.

 The mother smiled at the child, as he scrambled to his feet, and put her hand on his shoulder. She walked back to their home like that, her hand lightly touching his back. There was much that she wanted to say, but it seemed better to say nothing, and allow the event to be what it was. The evident peace of this spot coursed through her, and she wondered silently. ‘Would he remember this day, or would it pass like so many others did?’ The thought had no answer, and so she found herself calmly escorting her son home.

 It was well past his regular bedtime, so the child was surprised when his Mom offered to read to him. They walked up stairs together, and he calmly got ready for bed. When he was snuggled under the covers, his Mom picked up the book to begin reading. “This is not at the same point that I left off the last time?” She asked, with surprise. The child mumbled something about reading a bit of it that day.

 “You were reading the book by yourself?” The mother asked. “When did you start reading these books? You still struggle with your school work ” She did not notice that she was speaking loudly.

 The child looked up at his Mom, and said: “I only read a little. The stories in my reader are not as fun to read as the animal stories.” His voice was apologetic, and his mother paused with the realization that she had spoken almost harshly.

 “Oh, goodness, you didn’t do anything wrong. I was just surprised that you had read this book. It is much more difficult than the stories in your reader. I am happy that you are able to read this.” She held the book out to emphasize her point. “Do you think you could read some to me?”

 The child looked at his Mom, and smiled contentedly. “I think I could, but I’m tired tonight, and besides, I like it better when you read to me.” He found her voice very calming, and in a way like his little spot in the woods. He silently hoped that she would not insist, because he did not like reading out loud. He always stuttered and the other kids always made fun of him, and that made him stutter more, because he got very nervous.

 The mother smiled at her son. She began to read where he had left off, and only read a few pages before she noticed that he had fallen asleep. She closed the book, and sat looking at her son. Her worry had not subsided, but she had begun wondering about the validity of the teacher’s reports on his reading. Each report suggested that he struggled with his reading skills, and pronunciation. He did not seem to like reading very much, but perhaps this was a preference against reading aloud? She would have to ask the teacher about this on Sunday, when she would see her at church.

 The child felt himself drifting to sleep, and wanted to stay awake a little longer, just until the end of the chapter. He knew that he would not be able to stay awake, and again he would have to read the last part of the chapter to himself later. His Mom’s voice had a magical quality to it, and he thought that she should sing more. His mind did not yield to his little body’s exhaustion, and he continued to think of various things while his Mom read. When she stopped reading, his mind slowed to rest as well, and he was just barely conscious when his mother got up from the bed. He did not feel the kiss that she gave him, and that was just as well, because he would have worried over this change in behavior.

 Natas was tired too. He had had a strenuous day today, and the prospect of quietude seemed appropriate. His newness, and the trials of the day had exhausted his energy. He was pleased with Mom’s response to his reading, and he would have to work on the reading thing, because she would be so proud. The child would soon feel a difference, quite beyond what he had grown to expect. There would be a long period of confusion before he was able to really talk to the boy, but he had patience. The serenity of the evening had been a healing time for the child, which had become necessary after the events of the last couple of weeks. The child was still not able to comprehend what was happening around him.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch 3

Posted By Mark on June 1, 2010

 Morning came brightly, and the child woke with joy in his heart. He had a great deal of anticipation for the coming day, and it had nothing to do with it being Friday, and a half-day. He was going to take in a couple wonderful samples today, and he knew that his teacher would be impressed with his latest finds. This was one of his happiest times with school, and nothing could detract from that pleasure.

 The previous evening’s excursion held a great deal of pleasure in his memory, and the stirring had subsided. He and his father had a great walk, and he smiled as he thought of it on his way down stairs for breakfast. This week had been tremendous for him so far  Each day had held a new event for him, and this one was sure to be another great one.

 His Mom had his porridge ready for him when he arrived in the kitchen. She had always been surprised by his ability to rise early, with such alertness. The child was unlike her other children, and she struggled with a certain feeling of pride in her “baby.” It was difficult not to draw comparisons between her children, and to remain neutral in respect to their achievements. She knew that it was not simply a matter of him being the youngest, or that he was most like her emotionally. He was special, and there was no proper way to acknowledge it to him, or to anyone else in the family.

 The child practically skipped into the dining room. He could not contain his excitement, and chattered constantly while eating his breakfast. His brothers rolled their eyes at him. He did not mind their disinterest, but he wished that they did not seem to dislike him so much. He knew that he was an annoying little kid most of the time, but he loved them, and admired them so much. They were older and smarter than him, knowing so much more about the world. He could not wait to become more like them, and to understand what it was like to be mature.

 The three older brothers were not interested in flowers, and the eldest said as much. There was not any malice involved in the statement, but the young teen had little time for children. He was not usually a very patient fellow, and it showed in his bearing. “I hope that this contest is over soon.” He said, with animosity. “I’m tired of talking about stupid flowers all the time.” That said, he got up and walked out to the kitchen, picked up his school bag, and went outside.

 The child was hurt, but he took it in stride, and followed his brothers to the kitchen. The mother wore a worried frown until she looked at him, and saw the continued glow of excitement. He would survive this conflict without much effort, it seemed. The child was quiet now, but he was still very content with his newest prizes. The mother helped him with his jacket, and made sure he zipped up before going out. He never seemed to pay attention to such details, and it worried her as a parent.

 A momentary confusion held the child’s attention only briefly. It could not compete with his excitement. As he walked down the driveway, the skip returned to his step, and he nearly caught up with his older brothers. The child wondered briefly if he had brought his bowl out to the kitchen for his Mom. He knew that his Mom appreciated it when he did, even if his brothers did not think it was necessary. His Mom worked so hard making all their meals, and cleaning up after him, that he wanted to help in some small way. His brothers usually teased him about being “Mommy’s little baby,” but he did not really mind. The child liked it when she smiled at him.

 The child held his flowers proudly as he rode the bus to school. No one seemed to bother with him today, and it was pleasant to sit with his cousin and talk about his evening. The two children babbled about his prizes, and moved on to their plans for the weekend. Would they be able to visit this weekend, or did they think their parents would have chores for them to do? All this was thrown into the chatter, often enough both boys spoke at the same time, laughing and joking about silly stuff. It was a simple conversation of no real consequence.

 The child was somewhat disappointed when he arrived at school, because another child held a jack in her hand as well. She also possessed a couple other flowers, which the boy had not found yet. Such a contest as this gave him the sense of competition, and he felt the stirrings of dislike for the little girl. There was something improper about that feeling, but it came to him nonetheless. He felt ashamed of those feelings, and yet worried that he could not prevent them. The little girl always seemed to best him at school, no matter what the subject chosen. She was a proper little girl, with no real social skills, and he did not remember ever having spoken to her.

 The child noticed that his mood darkened as the morning went on. Another child came to school that morning with a nodding trillium. He would get no recognition for his efforts today, and knowing that he could have brought both in earlier in the week made him uncomfortable. This discomfort made him feel ashamed, and he was not sure why that was the case. He did not think that it was fair; because he had been doing what he thought was right. The other children did not seem to realize that there was anything wrong with picking any wildflower, and he wondered briefly if it was only his father who was strict.

 At recess, he told his teacher about his Lady Slippers, and the purple trillium. She smiled at him and spoke gently. “I do believe that you have found these flowers, but I must keep the rules too.” She seemed to want the child to understand. She had always been his favorite teacher, and he felt a mixture of emotions roll through him.

 “I’m not allowed to pick them ” He told her with grief. “Father says that they will not bloom again if I do, and they are too pretty to destroy.” He had hoped that she would understand his predicament, but she did not. No one would believe that he had those flowers at home, that he had watched them grow over the last couple of weeks, and that they were too beautiful to kill.

 The teacher did not understand why the child seemed so disappointed, but she did sense his displeasure. “I cannot accept a story about a flower. That is a rule that I gave at the beginning of the contest. You can only get credit for a flower that you bring to school.” She tried to sound comforting, but it did not appear to be working. “Maybe you could dig one up, and bring the whole plant to school. I could pick you and your flower up Monday morning if you would like, and drop it off when I went home.”

 The child felt something snap inside his little body. “Father has gone to work again, so I can’t ask him if I’m allowed ” He shouted at his teacher. “By the time I can ask him, someone else will find them too ” The flowing emotions were not halted by the changes in the teacher’s face. It seemed that the child had lost all control of his senses, and a tantrum had begun.

 “You will not speak to me like that  You will go into the classroom, and sit quietly, and think about how you have acted.” It was not that the teacher was mean, or that she did not care about the child’s emotions, but she had to maintain her authority. She could not do that if she allowed temper tantrums to disrupt her position. She had been a teacher long enough to know what the result of that would be. There would be no further punishment for the child, because she did not anticipate any pattern developing with him. She knew that he was normally a very well behaved student, and this was something out of the ordinary.

 The teacher’s voice halted the child’s response. He did not cause problems at school, and this was a thing of pride for him. When she finished speaking, he turned around and walked silently into the school, went directly to his seat, and sat down. He was still sitting quietly when his classmates returned from recess, and he sat like that for the remainder of the morning. The teacher did not notice the occasional tear that he wiped from his eyes, but she did notice that he was not his usual attentive self.

 He was quiet on the bus ride home. The bus driver noticed that he did not smile when he was getting on or off the bus. She thought that he must have not been feeling very well, but never found the flowers that he left laying on his seat. She tried to cheer him with a smile and a pat as left got off the bus, but to no avail. She did not see the tear that fell on the step as he was getting off the bus, and she would not have understood if she had.

 The child told his Mom the story when he came in the house. He did not leave out the part where he was sent to the classroom. At his core, he was a very honest child, and possessed a very strict sense of right and wrong. The mother did not know what to say to the boy. She wanted to make him feel better, but did not know if it were possible. She could not bring herself to punish him for his behavior, and yet she was very disturbed by it. Her son had always been very well behaved, and this was out of character for him. Something in his manner suggested a deeper affect, but she could not draw his feelings out.

 The child went to his room after he ate his dinner. The mother noticed that he had eaten without any comment, and without his normal enjoyment of his favorite lunch. He thanked her for the meal, placed his dishes on the counter as he always did, and walked up stairs. There he found the book that his Mom had been reading to him, and began to read. He had never read alone before, and it did not occur to him that it was strange, or different. He just wanted to be alone with his thoughts for a while, and the book became his closest friend.

 The child’s thoughts were confused that day. He knew that he should not have spoken to the teacher in such a loud voice. He knew that she was only obeying the rules, like she asked him and his classmates to do. He believed that she did not like making him feel bad, and he did not like feeling angry with her. He did not know why he was angry with her, and he was too young to understand that it was not really her with whom he was angry. The world is a hard place for children, and he was an especially sensitive child.

 The stirring began as a soft weight in the child’s head. It built to a point where he was no longer able to read his book. He wiped away tears as he tried to push down the stirring, but he was not strong enough. Something within him cracked open that day, and he became someone different. He was no longer as happy as he had been, and slowly the people around him noticed. Natas had come to reside in the child’s head, and though still weak, he was slowly growing in stature and authority.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch 2

Posted By Mark on May 25, 2010

 The next weeks and months were a transition for the child. He became much more aware of his surroundings, as though the world became both larger and smaller at the same time. It was not that he changed very much; he had always been an observant child, but he did begin to experience confusion more often. He struggled to comprehend the adult world around him, and found that it made less sense than his own. A child was far more honest and accepting that the adults he saw around him. At first he judged them to be evil or good depending on their actions, but then he began to see that each had their positive and negative attributes; it was then that he began to feel the stirring with some frequency.

 That spring was quite eventful for him. His teacher held a special kind of contest to teach the children about nature. With the blossoming of his new awareness, he was given the task of locating new flowers. His teacher told the class that she would have a special prize for the student who was able to bring in the most samples of wild flowers. He was excited at the prospect of doing something he loved, and getting a reward for it. He knew that he could win the prize, because he spent a lot of time picking new flowers for his Mom.

 The first day of the contest he took twelve different varieties of flowers to school. He did not get credit for all of them because several children took the same ones, but he was still the top of the class. The teacher decided that she would not count any flowers, which were duplicated on the same day, so he was content with having eight on his list. By the end of the first week he had twenty flowers on his list, and he was very proud. His Mom was very happy to see him this excited about school, because he had seemed a little disheartened recently.

 He had found his first real love for life, and walking through the woods around the family farm was safe. The child became a real observant naturalist, seeking out many varieties of wild flowers in the next few weeks. Each afternoon, when he came home from school, he hurriedly finished his chores, so he would have as much time as possible to wander about in the woods. His father, always a stern man, watched his son with amazement; he had not seen such intensity in any other child, and found himself feeling very proud. He had little time for his youngest son, with the need to be away at work nearly every weekend. This newfound interest in wildlife had little to do with him, but he was pleased that his son was so excited about something educational.

 The child found himself in a conversation with his father one evening, after supper had been cleared away, and before bedtime. The father asked him about the contest, and he explained in excited tones. “We have to be first to bring in the different flowers, and we are given credit for each color of the species as well ” He did not appear to notice that his word choice was that of a much older person.

 His father did notice, and did not know how to react to it. He thought about his little old man, and found himself smiling. The child looked at him questioningly, anticipating a response of some sort. He tussled his head lovingly, and thought about who this young boy would become. “Now, you remember that there are some flowers that we should never pick?” He had had to discipline the child last year for picking a wild flower, which would not bloom again if picked, and this contest brought that incident to mind.

 “I remember Father.” His face became serious, and anxious for a moment. “We don’t ever pick Lady Slippers, because they won’t bloom again if we do  I like to look at them, and I wish I could bring them to Mom, but I won’t pick them again.” The child gazed up at his father, and gave him a nervous smile.

 The father was impressed, and again smiled at his young son. “I am glad you remember. I like to look at them too. Have they begun blooming yet?”

 “They were almost out yesterday  I was gonna go up to check on them today, but it was raining when I got done my chores, and then it was supper time.” The child was nearly bouncing with excitement, and his father felt a well of emotions, which nearly overcame him.

 “We could walk up there together if you would like. We will get a little wet, and you will have to get changed for bed as soon as we come back.” He rarely had time to spend with his son, and this seemed like an obvious opportunity.

 “Can Mom come with us?” The child asked excitedly. There was a moment’s pause, when the father felt left out, or excluded from the situation.

 The mother resolved the situation by saying: “I cannot go right now. I have dishes to do, and your bath to run.”

 Father and son walked up to the woods together. Each was silent with his thoughts about the encounter. His son was barely restrained in his excitement, as was demonstrated by his halting gallop. The father managed to control his emotional response better, but he still walked very quickly, and allowed his son to hurry his pace without complaint. The bushes were dripping with moisture, and both of them would need fresh, dry clothes when they returned home. Neither of them noticed.

 When they approached a small clearing just off the hayfield, the child let go of his father’s hand and rushed forward. He almost immediately dropped to his knees near some small plants. “They’re out ” The child called excitedly. “There’s a pink one, and two white ones…” His voice petered off into gibberish, showing the enthusiasm that possessed him.

 The father hurried over to his son, and knelt down to inspect the flowers as well. There were actually three pink blossoms, and five white ones. Off to one side of the clearing, there was a clump of nodding trilliums, hiding their splendor from view under their three broad leaves. Along the edge of the brook, not too far away, he thought he could make out some jack-in-the-pulpits as well. This was a wonderful, peaceful spot, and he silently thanked God for the experience.

 “Have you taken trilliums or jacks in yet?” The father asked. It felt odd, asking such a question, but he had been off at work for a while, and had no idea what his son had already taken in.

 The child looked up, surprised. “I thought they were like the Lady Slippers. They won’t bloom again either, at least not for a long time?” The statement ended as a question, and the father smiled at his son.

 “That is true, but they are fairly common, and I do not think we will miss them a great deal. It is up to you. This spot seems so nice the way it is, and it would be a shame to take anything away from it.” He stopped speaking when he realized that he was talking too much for his son’s normal attention span.

 The child looked at his father wonderingly. Something was different today, but he could not quite understand what the difference was. “There are some trilliums down there.” His excitement got the better of his attention. “And there are jacks all along the brook; I wouldn’t have to take the ones here at all.” The child hesitated only a moment before rushing off to claim his prizes. The father stood solemnly, and watched the child dash down the path. This was quite the experience. He so wished that he could spend more time like this, but there always seemed to be something more important to do. He knew that he missed much in the rearing of his youngest son. He was truly a joy to watch, as he hovered close to the ground a couple times. He admitted to himself that he had not really watched the child before, and it was painful for him to contemplate.

 The child returned to where his father stood. For a moment he did not know if he should speak, because the man had a stern sort of look on his face, and it made him nervous. His father looked down at him and his face changed, showing a kindly smile again. “I got one of each ” He said presenting his prizes with a sense of accomplishment. “There’s a red trillium down there too,” he said pointing with his left hand. “It’s the only one I have seen here, so I didn’t pick it.”

 The father’s eyes became cloudy for a moment. He could not express his feelings, so he simply took his son’s hand and started the journey back to their home. He had not expected to be this moved by a simple excursion into the woods. It was difficult to understand how the last few minutes had impacted him. He did not wish to trouble his son with such a complexity, so he contented himself with a gentle touch of hands.

 The walk back was a little slower, but the child did want to hurry back as well. He wanted to show his Mom his prizes. His father seemed remarkably solemn, and the child did not know if he should speak at all or not. He began to notice how wet he was, and he began to notice that he felt chilly, and wondered why he had not noticed earlier. His teacher would be amazed at his latest finds. He hoped that she would understand about the Lady Slippers and the red trillium, but his father was right about them, and he liked his little spot.

 The child presented his prizes proudly when they entered the house. “Father said I could pick a trillium, and a jack.” He said. “The Lady Slippers are out in bloom now, so you have to come see them tomorrow…” The child quickly described the whole excursion. The father stood silently, with a hand on the child’s shoulder. That misty feeling returned, and he felt it necessary to walk away from the conversation. There did not seem to be a good reason to expose his son to this response to the walk.

 While his Mom helped him get ready for his bath, the child thought about his walk with his father. He did not understand why his father had become so solemn, and it worried him a little. He wondered why his father had not stayed to listen to his story, but he thought that he might be tired. He was tired most of the time, because he worked so much. The stirring returned while he was washing his arms. He did not know why, but he did not really understand his father’s actions, and yet he could not stop thinking about them. This was the first time he remembered doing anything fun with his father, and it seemed to have disappointed the man.

 The stirring continued when his Mom tucked him into bed, and he thought about asking her about it, because she always knew how his father felt. He was tired, so he decided to ask in the morning before he went to school. He had pleasant thoughts of flowers to help him fall asleep that night, and he forgot about the questions. Natas was not able to possess his attention for long yet, for he was still very new, and not fully developed.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Ch 1

Posted By Mark on May 25, 2010

 This story begins, as do many others, with a small child bringing forth an image, which surprises and disturbs the adults. I believe that children are sometimes drawn into the adult world in such a way as to shake their foundations, and this has one of two possible resolutions. The adults in question can respond favorably, in which case they will acknowledge the child’s innocent honesty, and examine that aspect of their lives, on which the child commented. Adults can also completely lose their perspectives, and criticize the child for his inability to understand the adult world. In either case, the people concerned are directly affected by the conversation: the child is affected by the actions of the adults, whether positive or negative, and the adults are affected by their capacity to accept or reject criticism.

 In this case, the child brought forth an amazing image on an Easter morning. All through the Easter sermon, he worked away on a picture, and in the end he presented his picture of the empty tomb with a glorious sun shining overhead. Many in the congregation were astounded by his creativity, and commented on how beautiful it was, and one woman even asked if he could make her a copy of it, so she could take it with her. All these compliments were well received by the young boy, but he also heard a murmur in the background, concerning his inattentiveness during the sermon. Should he have been paying more attention to the minister, and spending less time being a child?

 As the conversation continued, concerning his picture, and the various attributes that he had emphasized, one comment caught his ear; the Deacon noted how the sunshine in his picture matched the sun outdoors. The child spoke of his inspiration for the sunshine. To the astonishment of the congregation, he spoke quite freely, without due regard for his position with the lowest degree of religious experience. He told them that he had noticed that it was always sunny on Easter, and always rainy of Good Friday. As one might expect, the congregation was astounded again at his observation. The Deacon commented that this was an example of the innocent honesty of a child. Another lady suggested that she had not noticed that, but that it seemed to be true. A hush fell over the congregation, before they began to depart.

 The child did not understand it at the time, but each member of the congregation found his observation quite disturbing. Only his mother was able to take with her something positive from that moment. She recognized that her son was able to see his faith more clearly than most of the adults who professed their faith to the world. She thought about that statement, and realized that she herself had not given attention to such an obvious detail. It was not so much that she had ignored it, as complained about the bad weather that Friday. It was something that she should have given thanks for today, or at the very least, she should have acknowledged the distinction to her son. She rebuked herself for having the surprise of her son telling her something she should have been teaching him. She was very pleased with her son for having the depth to see that without any teaching, and so she was smiling to herself as she left the church.

 It seemed that such an observation should have given the congregation something special to take home with them, but this was not the case, and the child heard several comments as he was led out of the church. The Deacon was able to divert the blame for this observation onto the minister. He said “There is something that should have been used during the service today. It is a valid and spiritual example of our faith, which was not given proper recognition.” In this statement was conveyed a veiled attack on the minister’s capacity to shepherd the flock, something he liked to say on a regular basis, because he believed that no one was as well suited for that job as himself. The child did not understand this statement, nor did he recognize the context of the statement, but he was confused by it.

 The Deacon’s sister, who had originally asked for a copy of the picture, raised another issue entirely. “It is difficult to keep a child’s attention focused on the sermon.” She spoke calmly, but loud enough to be heard. “It is good to see that his attention was still on God.” There were two veiled statements contained within these words. First, as the congregation knew, her eldest son was a quiet, well-behaved young man, who was attending Bible College with the intent of becoming a minister; this was demonstration enough that she had been able to rear a child with the proper respect of the Church. Second, the child’s mother was lacking in proper parenting skills, as was demonstrated by the fact that none of her children seemed inclined to religious pursuits. The child was impacted by the negativity, but could not focus on its origin.

 The minister greeted the child warmly, as he and his mother walked out that day. The elderly gentleman bent over to take his hand in a mature handshake. “You have given us all something special to take home with us today, young man.” He did not give even a hint of sarcasm, nor did he seem to be patronizing the child, and he gave the mother a comforting nod. There was something different about his attention that day that the child was unable to comprehend; it was as though he was suddenly important to everyone in the building, and all over a nice picture. He could not realize that this was the beginning of a conflict that would rend the Church asunder  The minister did not know that it would end that way, but he did recognize the jeopardy placed on his position. A small child should not outshine the spiritual leader of the congregation; it was too much for the boy to understand, but he was deeply moved by the event.

 That day a stirring began within the child, something he was incapable of understanding, or even giving voice to the sensation. His mother was sensitive to his confusion; she, at least, was able to sense his disquiet. “You are quiet today?” She asked a question, with the tone of her voice. They were alone now, as they started the walk home. “You had quite an inspiration?”

 The child thought for a moment before answering his mother. “Did I do something wrong, Mom?” He was reaching for an answer to his questions.

 “No. You gave us an interesting thought to take home with us. God moves in mysterious ways, and today your message was more significant than any other.” The mother showed all her pride, and love within those words, and the child fell silent again. It still made no sense, and he could not grasp the reality of his mother’s words. He was but a small child, with very little knowledge of God, or of Church, he had always liked going to Church, but he had never been able to pay attention. Most times this meant that he fell asleep half way through, but sometimes he drew, or played with a toy he snuck in with him.

 He thought about the Deacon, and his sister, and the minister, and he felt the stirring again. He noticed a bee on a dandelion, and lost his focus for a moment. Spring had come early this year, and Easter was late. The boy thought about kicking the bee, and then he thought about picking a flower for his Mom. He felt bad about wanting to kick the bee, and he wondered if it was a sin to have such thoughts. It seemed to him that everything fun was a sin somehow, and yet his Mom did not act like that was true? She seemed to think that God intended people to be happy, and loved Him for it.

 Sometimes the child was confused by the conversations he heard at Church. Many of the people there seemed so serious, and sad; he did not understand why his Mom was different, but he did think she was special. He was more confused today than usual, because he knew that he had done something that people did not like, but his Mom told him that he didn’t do anything wrong. “Mom, I don’t think the Deacon likes me?”

 His mother looked down at him, and suddenly she understood how troubled her son was. She put her hand, comfortingly, on his shoulder and said: “I don’t think the Deacon likes himself. He is too serious about his life, and has never allowed himself to be happy about anything.” It was to her credit that she spoke to her son this way. His mother never treated him like a baby; she read him stories at bedtime, and helped him with his homework, but she spoke to him as to another adult. The child never understood how rare that was, until he was much older and wiser.

 The stirring returned and the child fell silent. He did not fully understand the stirring, nor could he have put words to the thoughts that were occurring to him. The stirring was with him occasionally over the next weeks and months, but it was some time before he recognized the confusion. It would be years before he could give voice to those thoughts, and many more before the voice took on its name. The stirring came as a second experience with God; the first had been emotional, and this one was spiritual, a sudden hushing of all other thoughts, which did not focus on reality. Natas was too old for the child, and too young for the adults who surrounded him.

Messiah Chronicles Part 1 Intro

Posted By Mark on May 25, 2010

 I have pondered this title for quite some time, knowing that it was appealing, without quite knowing why. The title has been months in the stage of acceptance, and longer still in comprehension. I have answered questions concerning it, and yet been unable to completely understand it myself. In my waking moments this very morning, I realized that it was a simple title that described my nature better than any other: I am the opposition to the temptation of humanity, but I do not have a people to save. That is a simplistic account of the title, I realize, and I will attempt to explain it further in this, the first chronicle.

 There are three separate aspects to the title, and I will explore each in its turn. The first is Natas, the opposition of the Satan. In order to understand this aspect of the title, it is necessary to understand the nature of the Satan. In the Christian tradition, one views Satan as the ruler of Hell, the leader of a rebellion against God, which resulted in failure and eternal damnation. Further, he is the ruler of this world, and poses as the opposition to Christ’s teachings on Earth. As such, he poses the greatest threat to Christianity, and to all that is good about humanity. He is the enemy, who should be feared and hated.

 In this persona, Satan tempted Christ with the pleasures of the flesh. He presents each of us with the fantasy of a pleasurable life without God’s restrictions. This is the basic principle behind such myths as vampires, those who live forever without a soul, or without a conscience. There is an obvious negative connotation to this image, but there is also a positive one, which acknowledges human iniquity and proposes a possible excuse for its continued existence. One does not have to accept full responsibility for his or her actions, because there is a power in the world that exists to corrupt us. We were given free will, but sinning can be accepted as the result of continuous temptation by a being that’s sole purpose is to tempt us into sinning.

 There is an older understanding of the Satan as well, which was altered in the Christian tradition. The Satan was a title given by God to the being responsible for tempting man. This being was neither evil nor good, and existed to promote Man’s freedom. Without this constant testing, man would be unable to prove his worth to God, so it existed as a servant of God. The Satan still promoted the base human emotions, and was a focus for the fall of Adam. It still promoted that, which was least admirable in man, those actions and emotions, which show man to be an animal.

 This aspect of the title signifies a direct opposition to the tempter of Man. Natas stands for the higher emotions exhibited by humanity. He does not accept any cause that does not present the possibility of improving human life. He hopes to show us the meaning of life, the true evolution of human existence. The creation of a drive for human excellence is the basis of his teaching, and so he does not accept hedonism. This is the truest testimony of the Satan, that man should be hedonistic. Natas is the voice of opposition to the modern focus on pleasure seeking; the modern world has reached a point where all else is considered foolish, or irrelevant. I choose to focus my attention on human excellence, and, therefore, I am Natas.

 The second aspect is the Messiah concept. It is also deeply rooted in the Christian tradition; the Christ figure is the most popularly recognized version. He came to the Jews, as a saviour prophesized to bring them freedom. He worked great miracles, and taught the multitudes the meaning of love, taught them that there greatest enemy was within themselves. He brought a message, which has been carried down to us in the form of the New Testament; the new rules that God has set down for man. His message of love has survived to our present age, so he stands as the most successful of the messiahs.

 The Messiah concept is a little more complex than it may appear. We understand Christ, as a messiah, because of our education, and the knowledge that has been handed down, but the Messiah concept is somewhat lost in the translation. The term saviour is much more significant than any message that “saviour” might bring. We remember the saviour, as the bringer of a message of peace and love, but is that what he was. If that is all that he was, then why was it that he was crucified? The teacher of love should not be the subject of such extreme violence, or even that much animosity. Conceptually, the idea of loving one’s neighbor is not that horrific, nor onerous enough to justify his death.

 The Messiah comes as a saviour for a people, and as such he always poses a threat to the status quo. Christ’s teachings were not that radical, but they were brought at a time when the religious authorities were struggling to maintain control, instead of striving for the glory of God. We can accept his message, as a simple extension of the Old Testament, because we have been trained to see it as such. In the historical context, Christ came to free his people from their bondage to the Law. The Law was what the religious leaders held over the heads of the masses; the Law was the true god of the Jewish people. His message made the individual responsible for his or her relationship with God, and released them from the dominance of the priesthood.

 The modern context does not permit us to see the dominance of High Priests, because religion is so convoluted in our society. This is mostly due to our narrow view of religion, which only includes those who profess to be members of a specific religion. This is certainly the most common understanding of religion, but not a valid definition. A religion is a coherent collection of beliefs, which guide one’s life; there should not be a narrow definition of such a term, because it damages the comprehension of its authority. In this broader view of religion, we can understand how something like hedonism can take the form of a religion. In itself, hedonism cannot be accepted as a religious system, because it gives no guidelines for human interaction. This was the function that individualism has performed in the context of modern thought.

 The structural concept of modern individualism has enabled us to progress far toward the goal of establishing peace and prosperity in the world, but it is lacking a true understanding of the human experience. Its universality is the foundation of its control over our society. The appeal of being able to say that we are all created equal, or to put it into the modern context, we are all equally able to be our own god. Hedonism becomes the central aspect of the religion, because it allows the individual to do whatever feels good to him, while ridding him of his guilt and/or shame concerning his actions. This system of beliefs allows us to “feel good” about ourselves, but it somehow does not give everyone the desired meaning for life.

 The principle of individualism is self-efficacy, but we are not able to live without a significant meaning for our existence. What we need is to find meaning in our lives, so that we can be comfortable with existing. I stand, at this juncture, with a reason for existing, and as such am able to provide others with meaning for their lives. I have read important books, and have linked significant thoughts and experiences to create a coherent structure for my life. I think that this is something that could assist others in creating a life with meaning. I have taken on the task of teaching this to those around me, so I am a Messiah.

 The third aspect is the fact that I have no “people” to save. I have arrived at a moment in history, when the concept of peoples is confused beyond recognition; there are very few who have a concept of cultural unity, and it is not usually about a specific belief system. Each of the great prophets, or messiahs came with the intent of saving their people, and I have no people. This makes me a lost soul in the context of human experience. Add to this that I have no family, and no relationships, which would be considered normal in this society, and I become something of an enigma to most. The human mind is an amazing thing, which can be called upon to categorize nearly anything; in my case, the category contains but one subject, and it is very difficult to pin down.

 I return now to the beginning of a tale that will lapse through time and experience. This, the first Chronicle, was designed to give the reader some inclination toward the subject at hand, but we will soar with the eagles, and sleep with lions before we are done. This experience is not for the weak of stomach, nor the weak of mind, so prepare your self for a sojourn into the incredible iniquity of one who cannot find his way alone. I have sought enlightenment at nearly every temple, and in the end realized that I had achieved nothing, and everything. In the blink of an eye, Natas, The Lost Messiah was born. May all that is Holy in the world quiver in anticipation.

Chapter 3 Among Men and Women

Posted By Mark on May 15, 2010

Morning came and he rose with a stretch hoping to relieve some of the tension that still lay in his muscles. He assumed that there would be little relief from the physical strain while the mental stress continued to plague him. He wished for some release from all that plagued his mind, and found himself muttering while he attended to his attire. Ostlen rolled over with a groan, squinting through the brightness of the morning. Oddly, his companion has not risen first this day, and Korin could not help feeling somewhat surprised.

“Curse your high class taste in wine.” The words were spoken in little more than a whisper. Ostlen stood unsteadily, stumbled to the table, and abruptly dunked his head into the water basin. The water has chilled over night, and Ostlen reacted as one might expect, jerking erect just long enough to collapse onto his cot. Korin laughed at the sight of it, and his friend had the audacity to glare at him hatefully. “I suppose you feel no ill effects from our indulgences.”

Understanding washed over him, and he found himself laughing aloud, much to the displeasure of Ostlen who clapped his hands over his ears and whined. “You were drunk last night. I believe I was acting a terrible fool, for all that you were laughing.” A part of him felt indignant, but he could not resist the humor of the morning after. The fellow looked quite awful, and it seemed apparent that he was suffering far more this morning than Korin had the evening past. It did not remove his discomfort, but it did give him something with which to distract his feeling of humiliation.

He completed the task of dressing, and looked down at his companion still sitting with his head in his hands. His stomach grumbled, and Ostlen looked up wearily, “Always, with the hunger and early rising. One would think that you were the servant, and I the lazy masters, by the way you seem to rush about.” He always seemed to muster enough energy to make those comments that would give Korin pause to think. He concluded that his instincts were correct, and the fellow was attempting humor through gritted teeth. Having seen the effects on a couple of young students, his respect for Ostlen grew with his next action.

The fellow stood up nearly straight, and set about gathering his garments from where he had tossed them the night before. “Up at dawn, and expecting to eat immediately. I should have gotten food and drink brought to him this morn.” His grumbling only brought a smile to Korin’s face, and when their eyes met, his companion shook his head, an action that caused him to squint again, and smile back. “I suppose I did not need to gobble down that last glass, but it did seem a waste to leave it sit there.”

Ostlen looked a mess, with still wet hair simply hand combed, and his garments all a jumble, when they went through the door. The common room was quiet when they entered. Korin was sure that Ostlen was not the only patron with a heavy head this morning. Most of those seated were silently sampling their morning meal, looking as though it was a struggle to even try. Korin stroke purposefully to the table they had sat at the night before, and was aware of a bustle of movement from behind the serving counter. He doubted that the same staff was required to work the morning shifts, as were there the night before. The fellow from the previous afternoon was behind the counter, guiding the staff to customers as the need arose.

The young lady who strode to their table as soon as they were seated must have been a sister of the lady who served them the night before. She has the same bright smile, and excitement about her duties. “You arise early, sir. What can we get you to help you on your way today?” She seemed so full of energy that Korin found himself smiling in return. “Our corn bread and beans were made fresh this morning; they’re full of energy, and will keep you lively ’till well past noon.” Korin nodded his agreement, and looked questioningly at his companion. Before he was able to inquire as to Ostlen’s needs, the young lady was off to the kitchen.

A few moments later, the young lady returned with two smallish mugs filled with a steaming liquid that smelled faintly of apple. She set the mugs down appropriately before each of them, and then smiled up at Korin. “I’ll be back in a moment with your meals. Enjoy your cider, it’s freshly steamed.” Ostlen groaned at the sound of her voice. He could not contain his humor, and chuckled softly as the young lady hustled back through the tables. Korin could not resist sampling the beverage, and found it thick, and appetizing.

“She is entirely too helpful this morning.” Ostlen groaned. His comment did not immediately strike Korin’s consciousness. “Apple cider is no drink for a stomach like mine, and she knows my condition was worsened by each descriptive word.” The dry bitterness in his voice did little to dissuade Korin’s humor.

“You did this to yourself.” He said with a rueful grin. “I have tried to be sympathetic, but you make it difficult with all your whining.” His mind caught up to his words at that point, and he sputtered. “That is not the same young lady from last night! She could not be required to serve both night and day.” It was Ostlen’s turn to grin, which had the effect of contorting his face rather unhealthily.

Korin looked up at the young lady again as she returned to their table. He could not be certain still, but he began to believe that Ostlen was correct. “I have no words, good sir.” Her voice came out in a whisper, as she leaned over the table. “You are unlike any gentleman who has graced this place in my memory.” Her words confirmed that his friend was correct, and he found himself with no words with which to respond. He found his appetite faded when she stepped back and looked at him directly.

His mouth went dry, and he fumbled for words. She seemed to take encouragement from his lack of response, and smiled as she turned back through the tables. Korin felt the blood rush to his face yet again, but this time it was due to the frustration of finding himself tongue-tied. Not even the groan he heard coming from Ostlen, indicating that he regretted taking humor at the antics, made it any easier to bear the frustration of his failing mouth.

“You make it hard to be sickly,” Ostlen groaned. “Since you brought me down here, could you possibly eat so that I might retire for a short while.” All of this was said very quietly, and Korin wished he did not desire so dearly to retort more loudly. He looked down at the meal, and recalled his appetite briefly, and thought that for all that Ostlen spoke of him with humor he was accurate about the appetite. With a shake of his head that showed he surprised himself, he reached for his utensils and began to eat.

The meal passed without further incident, and once begun was quietly pleasant. Korin had trained his mind to focus on a particular problem, to the exclusion of all others, and this served him well now as he found himself in need of concentration. He had declared his intent to travel south to find others with whom to study, but he had no idea where to go, or what to do when he got there. Qalen had spoke of Telron, and as far as his memory indicated, that was a torn in the south west of Artesia. The Histories had told him the region was ripe with rebels, and those who were discontented with Artesian rule. This did not seem a place to which a scholar would travel to find teachers, but no other destinations came to mind.

The meal finished, Korin collected his companion and headed back toward his room to allow him time to rest. Inspiration struck him as he walked past the serving counter, and he turned toward the proprietor. “Would it be too much trouble to request parchment, and some writing equipment?” The fellow startled with his words, and Korin hastened to add. “I am more than willing to pay whatever the price, but my serving man is feeling under the weather at present, and I do not wish to venture out on the streets alone.”

“I will send a runner right away, sir.” He said quickly, giving one the feeling that the request was not too unusual. “I have little use for such things myself, but there is a shop not too distant, where such items are readily available.” Korin nodded his thanks, and turned back towards the stairs.

When they reached the room, Ostlen took only a moment to fall onto his cot. While concern for his friend suggested he should ask after his welfare, he thought quiet might well prove to be the best assistance he could provide. His mind went back to the task ahead, and he found some ease in his thoughts. He had come to this town, to seek his future, not knowing the true nature of the treasure he carried, and he would leave it far richer for the time spent here.

His companion had proven more resourceful than he had expected, demonstrating knowledge that much have taken many years to acquire. Korin had the feeling that this knowledge of men would prove quite useful in their journeys. It occurred to him that they might be better off if he purchased horses for their journey. Ho wondered why it had not occurred to him earlier, because as soon as the thought came to mind, he set his mind to go in search of a couple good mounts. He hoped Ostlen would prove to know something of horses as well. It surprised him that he had come to depend on his companion so quickly.

Ostlen did not feel angry with him, no matter how much he wished to be angry with someone. The dull ache in his skull was his own fault. no matter that Korin had ordered the wine. He was an adult, and he knew the effects of consuming too much wine. It did not make him feel any better, nor did it improve his mood in the slightest, but he accepted responsibility for his condition. Ostlen found that his companion led him to do the oddest things, and this was just one more that he had to accept as being his own choice. He thought briefly of Marlena, and felt the twinge of regret, which had the unfortunate effect of creating tension in his shoulders and neck, causing his head to throb far worse.

He winced with the pain, and a small moan escaped his lips. He could make out a concerned glance from his companion, and hoped the fellow would remain quiet. He was the fool for having drunk too much the night before, when he could have been giving Korin a better understanding of human interaction. Ostlen wondered if this was his due punishment for laughing at his friend’s predicament. Oddly, he began to feel the ache seep away, as though something was slowly draining the residue of the night before from his body. The throbbing turned first to a dull ache that he believed he could live through, and than it simply washed out of him.

Ostlen rolled over, anticipating the return of he pain, and attempted to sit up slowly. He was amazed to find that there were no further symptoms of the anguish he had felt mere moments before. Sitting on the edge of his cot, he hand brushed his thick, unruly hair; Marlena had told him he was as unruly as his too thick hair. He tensed for the expected onslaught, nothing. He looked up at his friend, and smiled. Had he not known better, he would have believed that the fellow worked some magic on him, as he had believe the day they first met. Magic was the realm of mystics, the territory of fool’s stories of goblins and elves.

Ostlen had not believed he would ever settle for a life of a servant, preferring to wander the meadows herding sheep and goats. His father had long served those who were stationed above him, and when he was weakened by injury, they had cast him aside. Ostlen had never cared for riches or status. He would be content living off the land as his forefathers had lived. He had told Marlena that he would marry only if his wife agreed to live as he did, and had been told he could not provide for a family; a family was not something he had ever contemplated.

A rap at the door drew his attention away from his thoughts. Korin called out calmly to the person on the other side of the door. The young lady entered bearing a small package. “The equipment you requested, sir.” She paused looking over at Ostlen, as though he had something to do with her circumstance. “Master Porley said you could settle with him later if you preferred.”

“Ostlen, could you accompany the young lady and settle our debt?” He spoke the request without the slightest hint of command. Ostlen wondered again, how it was that he could shift that voice to possess such dripping arrogance, and yet still seem poised to apologize if his request were too onerous. “You may wish to get something more to eat while you are at it. I fear you did not eat a proper breakfast this morning.”

Ostlen felt the head rush to his face, and noted a slight smile on the serving girl’s face. He looked at Korin, searching for the slightest hint of amusement and found none. “As you request, I should walk about and clear my head. I may find a few more provisions for our journey.” In his mind, he curses and was not sure why. He could not curse his friend for acting his role as Ostlen had suggested, and he could find no malice in word or deed. He simply cursed while gathering himself for another encounter with city life.

“You might wish to bring the basin downstairs, where I can refill it with properly heated water.” The young woman was entirely too helpful, if Ostlen was a judge. He wondered how often the woman had offered more work for herself. “That is, if it’s not too much trouble?” She smiled sweetly at this last comment, and Ostlen grimaced. She was entirely too sweet, and too helpful to be as nasty as she seemed capable of being.

“I thank you for your thoughtfulness.” Korin spoke calmly, appearing to overlook the veiled assault on Ostlen. Had he overlooked the comment or had he once again missed it entirely? Rather than attempt to point out what should be obvious, he grasped the basin and turned toward the door. In this jerking motion, he managed to not spill a drop. He caught a slight hint of apprehension on the face of the serving girl, as though he had somehow become dangerous in her eyes.

He had always been quick, able to handle most tasks requiring dexterity with an ease that raised eyebrows. Ostlen did not think of himself as anything out of the ordinary, but had occasionally been subject to comments concerning his rare abilities. He viewed it as a talent, one that allowed him to excel at certain manual tasks that other men seemed to find difficult; like the first time he held his father’s sword, and knew it would be an extension of his arm. Ostlen never paid attention to the little things that made others look on him differently; he did not recall stumbling in any frequency, but he did not notice that others were astounded at his balance.

The serving girl held the door open for him to walk through. Ostlen had the oddest thought as he breezed by her. He thought of the amusement he would have in dousing the woman with the night chilled water. Something os his thoughts must have been betrayed on his face, for she shrunk back from him as though he were about to assault her. His grin faded, as he thought that she really might be frightened. He shook his head to remove the odd thought from his mind, muttering to himself.

Korin had already set about opening his package before he thought to speak of precautions. It would have been inappropriate to speak of such things in front of the inn staff. A servant did not speak to his master, as he sometimes needed to speak to Korin. The fellow was entirely too naive for his own well-being. Were it not for his obvious knowledge of things Ostlen had only slightly encountered, he would have accounted the man a fool. He was young to the world, but this did not make him a fool, and he was not quite ignorant of the ways of people, just undereducated.

“Is he really as innocent as he seems?” The question came no sooner than the door had shut behind them. Ostlen knew that servants lived a far different life beyond the site of their charges, but this question surprised him. He suspected that the young lady was more than a little attracted to his companion, but did not know exactly how he should handle the situation. A part of him found amusement at this question, but he was not sure how much he could say about Korin without betraying his confidence.

“Innocent? I don’t think he is innocent, so much as honest and caring.” He glanced at her while speaking, and was rewarded to see her wide-eyed. It may be inappropriate for him to speak in depth about anything his companion had told him in confidence (Ostlen had to assume that all that he was told privately assumed a level of confidence), but he would enjoy a brief encounter with one who was so enamored with his friend. “In the short time that he has been my master, he has sought to insure my well-being as though it were as important as his own.” All of which was true, although she could not know that this was due, in part, to the real nature of their relationship.

“He seemed like a rare lordling. There are times when he does not act the master at all, and yet you are obviously his servant, stepping careful less you offend him.” Ostlen felt his hackles rise at the suggestion that he was someone’s toady servant, but he suppressed his feeling as quickly as it began. It had been his intent to present that face to the world, so her opinion of him showed that he had been successful. “He is even careful of offending those he meets by happenstance.”

In this, she was referring to herself the previous evening. Ostlen suppressed the urge to laugh, and carried on with his depiction of this man he had grown to respect in his short exposure. “He is respectful of others and I have witnessed him setting down those who tromped too harshly on their charges. He thinks that he has a responsibility to those beneath him. I serve his needs, as they become apparent, but he seeks to make those burdens as light as possible.”

Ostlen was surprised by his depiction of his friend and companion. He spoke with an ease that made apparent his unusual respect for one who appeared to be his master. Servants rarely possessed the type of loyalty he suggested by his words, and the effect was obvious. “This master of yours begins to sound noble, and you demonstrate a caring far deeper than is usual. I don’t believe that I have heard a servant speak so well of his master before.” They had reached the entrance of the kitchen at this point. She took the basin from his hands, and proceeded through the swinging doors with something close to respect in her eyes.

It was odd that he would think so of one who moments ago inspired him to douse her with cold stagnant water. He thought that this young lady might well prove to be good for Korin. It may not last long, most certainly, she would not last past the continuation of their journey, but she seemed to be much more than a servant entranced by one of status. Ostlen shook his head, lest he begin matchmaking like a peasant woman. Withdrawing the purse from it’s concealment, he strode over to the bar to settle Korin’s debt.

Ostlen was tempted to request a second helping of the morning meal, but he decided to grab a little something from a street vendor. There was suddenly an urgency to get out into the city, and look about their location a little. It was not long before he had lost himself in the throng of people wandering the streets. Given his last visit to the city, he wished to keep a low profile when traveling by himself. He had no concern about being noticed while traveling with Korin, for people saw what they expected to see, and he was simply a servant accompanying his master. Alone, he might be recognized by a passerby, or worse yet, by one of the city guard. Those of the temple, and their like, were not the forgetting type, and he guessed they would have words for the young man who took back his father’s gift.

His mind was on the troubles he intended to avoid, and not on the matter at hand. Ostlen shook his head slightly to rid himself of the impeding thoughts, and caught the glint of steel from the corner of his eye. A sweep of his right hand bared his small blade while he spun to meet whoever sought his purse. His thin blade struck steel with an audible clang. With the sound, pedestrians moved out of range of impending danger. As quickly as that, he stood poised for the next attempt in a small area facing two similarly clad attackers.

Apprehension should have caused him to back up, to move away from possible harm. He shifted the small blade to his left hand, and drew his father’s sword. The fellow who had made the first attempt bore wounds suffered in a brief struggle the day before. Ostlen was surprised to find these fellows so far from their normal terrain. They were fools, though, who should have rushed him as soon as he became aware of them. They were two, and he was alone. Ostlen stepped forward into the open space that separated the three men.

Something in his manner warned them, but by then it was too late. The fellow he had knocked down the day before gave pause to his long knife, but his companion surged forward, blade upturned in a death thrust. Ostlen turned his blade with his own, and swung his left hand so that it just cleared the fellow’s shoulder, and sidestepped as the fellow dropped limply. His second attacker cursed and stepped forward quickly, hoping to catch him off guard. Expecting something of the sort, Ostlen had let his small blade drop rather than tangle his hand in an attempt to retain it. The fellow knew he was outmatched, and threw all that he had into a deadly thrust. His short sword dropped to the street, loosed from limp hands.

Ostlen stood shaking slightly, surveying the crowd for any other danger. It appeared that the trouble was at an end, and people seemed eager to move away from this area. There much have been more to this attack than a simple retaliation, but Ostlen was unable to think of what. Regrettably, his short blade was imbedded deeply into the neck of the first fellow, so he swept up the other two blades and turned back toward the inn.

Pedestrian traffic parted in the direction he was walking, and the two city guardsmen strode out the mass. They walked purposefully, barely acknowledging those who had to hurry from their path. “You there!” One of the men wore a badge that signified some degree of authority, and he spoke as one used to command. “We were told that there was a conflict here.”

Looking past him, they must still be able to see the two shapes laying still in the street. “I was attached, and defended myself.” Ostlen has not counted on such a quick response by the guard. “I believe they were street thieves, who thought to lift my master’s coin.”

“You appear uninjured.” The fellow nodded toward the two bodies, and his companion walked over and bent to examine them. “Were you intent on keeping their weapons?” The fellow spoke as though Ostlen was little more than an insect. He appeared less concerned about Ostlen, than the fact that someone had disturbed the peace on his watch.

Ostlen did not know if the act of retrieving a fallen foe’s weapon was frowned on in the city, but there was little choice but to acknowledge his intent. “A man’s weapon is forfeit when he attacks another. I was merely shopping for provisions that my master suggested we would need on our journey south, when I was accosted by these thugs.” He tried to control his frustration over having to answer as a common thief.

“You spoke of a master; where does he reside?” The fellow changed topics as quickly as he did his attention.

The second man returned after giving the bodies a quick search. “It doesn’t appear that either survived…” He began somewhat sarcastically. A simple look from his commander cut off that line of speaking. “It appears they were struck from the front, vert efficiently.” The last was said with a semblance of respect, as though Ostlen had risen in his regard.

The commander nodded, and returned his attention to Ostlen. “Your master?” The fellow was an effective guardsmen, and Ostlen was willing to believe he gained his post through skill.

“We are staying at the Eagle’s Nest.” He was not going to attempt to dissuade the man. “I can take you to him if you would like. He was writing some notes when I left him, so I suspect that he will be there still.” Ostlen made an attempt to be cooperative.

“We frown on street violence.” The guardsman spoke with no emotion. “You do not appear to be the type seeking violence, and our report suggested it was you being attacked. I find no fault here on your part. Go in peace.” The man turned on his heel, and began giving orders for the clean up and disposal of the bodies. Ostlen was surprised, somewhat taken aback by the abruptness of his dismissal, but he thought it would be best to move on before the guardsman decided otherwise.

He found a street vendor on his way back to the inn, and paused long enough to wolf down two small morsels. Ostlen was unsure what was in the things, but they made his mouth water for more. He guessed he did not really wish to know what ingredients went into their making for fear of being disgusted. The city was an interesting place to visit, but their ideas about such things as food and drink left much to be desired. He threw the fellow another copper, collected three more of the things, and moved on toward the inn.

Another street vendor caught his attention before he had taken more than a few steps: a seller of knives, sheathes, and small leather goods. Ostlen stopped off to speak with the fellow. The fellow looked wide-eyed at him when he produced the two blades. Ostlen wished to rid himself of such items, for they held little value to him, and would prove to be too bulky for any long journey. The vendor sputtered something about not being in the market for trading such items, not wishing to take part in such activities. The fellow assumed that the blades had been stolen, and was afraid their rightful owners would be looking for them.

“I’ll tell you now, good sir, the former owners of these blades have no further use for them.” He spoke with good humor, despite the implication of his words, and saw the vendor’s expression change as the words struck home. “If either of the owners do visit you, then you can tell your friends at the tavern that you have seen a ghost.” The vendor looked again at the blades, and then shook his head in dismay, bowing submissively, he moved off down the street.

The idea of disposing of the items was now set in his mind, so Ostlen decided to go visit an acquaintance that may be less leery of the origins of such items. It was only a couple blocks past the inn to where the purveyor of used and antique items operated his business. He recalled seeing a couple items that would be useful to him on the journey, and hoped that he could make some sort of bargain. He noticed that pedestrians were parting hurriedly before him, and realized that he was still brandishing the two blades in his left hand. He paused long enough to tuck them behind his belt out of sight.

The proprietor looked up from yet another small item lying on his counter. Recognition appeared in his eyes in an instant, and he smiled quickly looking past Ostlen for his companion. “My master is working on something at the inn. I have come in search of a simple bargain.” With his words, he quickly retrieved the two blades from their concealment. The fellow shifted momentarily as the blades were presented haft first on the counter. “I was hoping I could trade these for some items of more usefulness on our journey.”

The man stammered something, and then turned his attention to the blades. “I don’t suppose the previous owners of these items will be searching for them?” The question really did not require an answer, but it suggested an acceptance of some illicit act. “I do not know what I might have that you would find useful, but feel free to look around. I am in the business of trading, so I am sure we can make some sort of deal.”

Ostlen took only moments to point out the items that had caught his attention the day before. A bone handled knife with a blade some seven inches in length sheathed in fine leather, and an ornate leather pouch that he believed Korin should use instead of the simple one he presently carried. The fellow asked if he intended an even trade for the two items, and Ostlen nodded. The items were forfeited due to an act of violence, but held no real value for him. He was more than content to offer them in trade for some more valuable items.

The proprietor smiles at Ostlen acknowledging that the trade held value for him as well. “I could do a little better than that, my friend. You do me a service by bringing your master here, I would honor that patronage.” Ostlen was little interested in the man’s desire to act the role of the congenial host, but would welcome any additional items the fellow offered. “I couldn’t help but notice the fine blade you carry. You carry it in a simple sheath, and I suspect you could do with one more appropriate to it’s value.” As he finished speaking, he reached beneath the counter, and produced a fine leather bound sheath. It appeared to be designed to hold a short blade such as his own, and Ostlen suspected it was as valuable, on it’s own, as the two items he had requested.

“I will not deny the appeal of having a proper container.” He could not have restrained the pleasure that he took in such an item. “I suspect that it is a near perfect match.” He suited his words by gathering up the three items, and stowing them away on his person. The shopkeeper smiled his pleasure at the conclusion of the transaction, and Ostlen wondered if the fellow really did enjoy his job as much as it appeared.

He determined that he would examine the items later, when he had the luxury of time and privacy. He would not use the sheath while in the city, just in case there were sensitive reasons for the fellow’s desire to offer the item in trade. Ostlen believed that it was always best to assume the worst in people, and be surprised when that belief was altered. The road ahead would be long, and he thought it best to avoid any additional dangers along it. The walk back to the inn was without incident, and he was content that passerby did not seem to recognize him from the earlier altercation.

The common room was quiet when he stepped in off the street. Although there were several tables occupied with patrons enjoying the midday meal, the room was hushed as compared to the street outside. Ostlen felt the rush of relief wash over him, as he secured the door behind him. It would take many days for him to grow accustomed to the bustle of city life. After a moment, he was able to pick up the murmur of conversation in the room, but it was hushed, private talk of companions taking their ease.

Master Porley stopped him on his way to the stairs. “I hear there was an altercation in the street this morning. I hope it did not interfere with your shopping.” While he knew that stories flew fast from street to common room, Ostlen had not been prepared for such questions. He stammered a reply, and hoped that it would end there. “You might wish to sit and have a drink, your Master has company at the moment.”

“Who is with him?” His head turned toward the barkeep, giving him a level look that seemed to surprise the fellow. “I asked last night that he not be disturbed in my absence!” Neither tone nor intensity could be mistaken as anything but the ferocity that surged through him at the moment. Words once spoken carried the weight of life and death, and Ostlen lived or died by them unless released through deed or word.

“I let no strangers go to the rooms unescorted.” Porley had the good sense to wipe the half smile from his lips, and replace it with a serious look. “I only meant that when I sent Blandina up with the wash basin, she did not return. Funny that, I would not have believed she was the type to entertain guests. She had always seemed a proper girl who performed her duties for the coin offered.”

Ostlen visibly relaxed, as the tension seeped from his shoulders. “I’ll take an ale, then, and my apologies for my reactions. It has been a tense morning.” Porley indicated a table at the end of the bar, and went about filling a couple glasses with the house ale. Ostlen went over and took a seat where he could survey the room, and continue conversing with the proprietor.

“You looked a little under the weather this morning.” Porley said with good humor, giving him the sense that his earlier reaction had been forgotten. “The young lady seemed to enjoy serving up a goodly portion of our breakfast fair.” He did seem to be a man of good humor, which Ostlen assumed was necessary for the sort of career he had chosen.

“A little too much wine with my evening meal.” Ostlen spoke with an ease quite unlike himself, but he found the fellow to be an easy conversationalist. “My compliments to you on the quality you serve. I am sure that many would seek to profit by diluting such beverages.” There was a hint of cynicism in his voice, but the proprietor chose to ignore it. The man had taken a seat across from him, and this placed them in a much more intimate conversation. It was odd that the proprietor would choose to sit with a servant in a place that appeared to cater to the better class of patron.

“I hope that the ale is to your liking as well.” Porley lifted his glass in a casual salute, which he felt obliged to match. “The story that come in from the street was of a young man being set upon by two street thugs.” The fellow had leaned froward slightly to insure a semblance of privacy. “The general description matched your garb, and seemed to match my impression of your role here. I do not speak for mere gossip; that is something beneath the two of us. It would be important to me to know why a temple thief would return in the service of a young Justice?” The words were spoken casually, but the question set him back in his seat.

Ostlen took a moment to take another drink from his glass, trying to gage the man sitting before him. “I am no thief.” He said in a hushed voice. Porley did not seem to be trying to insult or arouse him. “I took back that which was mine by inheritance. The temple priests did nothing to deserve such an item, and my father more than paid his debt before he died.” Ostlen tried to restrain the fury that built up within him as he though back to his first visit to the city. He had been little more than a child, when he lost his mother to illness.

Porley waved his hands dismissively, in an attempt to calm the apparent anger. “I meant no disrespect, good sir. There were those in the city who praised your courage, and wished you well.” his tone implied that he was one of those. “My brother was a temple guard at the time of your retrieval, and he spoke of it to me; how it was that you spoke, and the fact that your tried to do no harm. It seems that your attitude has changed somewhat in that respect.”

Recognition washed over him, and Ostlen saw again the guardsman who had stood aside at the end, and allowed him passage through the gate. There had been blood on his sword that day, but it had not been without cause. The horse had allowed him to flee his pursuers, and he had often wondered whose beast he had ridden. “Your brother was the wise one, I’m afraid. The rage had taken me by then, and little could stand before me. Today,” he spoke in quiet tones lest others hear and repeat, “the thugs had no chance, and the second must by congratulated for his courage, because at the last he knew he would die, but attacked nonetheless.”

“From the stories, I believe you are a warrior, and yet this answers not the question of your role here now.” Porley returned to his original question, so Ostlen knew that the fellow inquired as to Korin’s true position. “You have little cause for any affection for the temple folk, and even less for the Justices; yet, here you are serving a youth, who passes for one of them, and certainly act the part before the public eye. Rumor from the street is that he dressed down two of the gate guards, while they were welcoming him to the city?” The last was said questioningly, as though he found it difficult to believe.

“His story is his own, good sir. I will tell you that I am sworn to him, and any harm that befalls him will be viewed as an attack on my person. No threat is intended, but no hand will strike at him while I have breath.” Porley looked at him again, as though just now seeing him for the first time.

“I meant no disrespect, good sir. I fear that I have become little better than the street folk always wishing after gossip like a foolish barmaid.” The fellow began to rise, as though he would leave Ostlen to his drink in silence. “You and he, a noble man and his worthy knight!” There was no hint of humor, and something that suggested awe filled respect. Something in the way that he emphasized the words made the often spoken phrase carry a great deal more significance. “Drink up, my friend, this one is on me, an old debt now repaid.”

Ostlen opened his mouth to ask the meaning of such a comment, but the fellow turned away before he could speak. The next moment erupted in confusion, and all eyes turned toward the stairs. “I am not one of those! How dare you suggest?…” A sputtering of other comments begun and collapsed in a fury that descended the stairs and flew through the kitchen door with a crash that threatened to tear it from it’s hinges. Porley looked from the door to stairs to Ostlen searching for a reason. Ostlen met his startled look, shook his head, and ascended the stairs.

Korin stood in the doorway, transfixed. He seemed caught between hurrying down the stair and flight. Ostlen reached the top of the stair, and shook his head at his friend. A man of status did not go chasing a serving wench down the stairs, after saying something that obviously offended her so drastically. Korin still hovered on the point of departure, paying little heed to the attention drawn to him. He broke at last, when Ostlen was nearly upon him, and turned back into the room.

Ostlen closed the door behind them in time to shutter out peering eyes from across the hall. He tried to restrain his sense of humor, knowing that this was yet another of the fellow’s missteps with the young lady. “What did you say to her?” He said in a hushed voice. The fellow had collapsed into one of the chairs as soon as he had entered the room.

“I don’t know!” Korin’s head had snapped back up at the question, as though he were readying himself for an attack. “We were speaking quietly of the city, and than she suggested that she should leave me so that I might freshen up before the water cooled too much. I suggested that I would give her a proper reward for her services when you returned from shopping. I only meant to say that you were presently carrying out coin, not that her services were less than adequate.”

Ostlen burst out laughing, unable to contain his mirth any longer. His friend seemed completely taken aback by the onslaught. He shook his head, and struggled to contain himself. The pained look on Korin’s face made the effort much less difficult; somehow, his anguished took something away from the humor of the situation. “You have much to learn of the ways of the world.” He said still struggling somewhat with the humor of the situation. “She believed you were asking her to assist you with bathing, and I would guess, other things as well.”

Korin half rose before Ostlen was able to restrain the man. “It would not do for you to go down there just now. The fault is not yours alone, for she must have been aware that your conversation was somewhat inappropriate. The proprietor stopped me from coming up when I came in, because she had been here long enough for certain assumptions to have been made.” His humor had left him in the struggle to explain the circumstances that had led to her reaction.

“How dare they!” Korin shot to his feet, despite Ostlen’s hand hold on his shoulder. Blocking him from reaching the door was a struggle, and he was taken aback by the fierceness of the man. Ostlen would not have thought a man of slight build would have the strength to move him, but this was evidently an incorrect concept. “I must explain! She cannot think that I would ask…” His struggle subsided as quickly as it had begun, and he turned back toward his seat.

The slump had returned to his shoulders, something that had not been evident since they had begun their journey to town. “I will make it right, my friend.” He had to do something to restore the passion that he had first witnessed on the roadway, when the man had dressed down the soldiers. “I will do and speak to her as your man. The folk need to know the circumstances of the misunderstanding.” He turned back toward the door, and something of the humor returned to his eyes, only now it seemed that he was the source of the humor, a knight going to seek forgiveness from a barmaid in the name of his esteemed master. He shook his head to relieve the pressure that was building there.

Chapter 2 – The Adventure Begins

Posted By Mark on April 15, 2010

The narrow path had merged with a broader roadway sometime in the midmorning. Korin has to watch his footing more carefully now due to wheel ruts and litter that characterized the well-traveled route. It was odd that such was the case, for it made more sense to him that the highroads be easier to travel than the game trails and footpaths. He suspected that he would find many more hazards due to human habitation, and according to his companion, those hazards were never more apparent than when visiting a city.

Korin’s apprehension rose as he neared the city. Perhaps it was merely the magnitude of it’s walls that caused this rising tide, or the volume of people it seemed to possess. To his eyes, the walls appeared to swell with the pressure of containing the masses, although he was sure that this was all his imagination. When still well over a mile from the nearest gate, for Korin assumed there would have to be several of these, his eyes were drawn to the number of travelers both coming and going. There were a number of small structures built within a stone’s throw of the portal, and there were a multitude of people running about between the buildings and various travelers. Wagons with wooden structures on them seemed to attract more of these people than mounted individuals, but they all attracted at least a few visits as they moved out from the shadow of the walls.

“This really is your first visit to the city.” Ostlen spoke from his position to his left and a step behind him. A position he had maintained since they had begun their approach to the city. “I did not intend to worry you, so much as give you caution in your travels. Townsfolk are not all thieves and vagabonds, although there are certainly many different types of those.” He paused as though contemplating his next words. “The worst of the vagabonds are to be encountered first, those who live in the hovels built on the king’s land in the shadow of the walls will pester every traveler to and from the city, and so you beware their filthy hands. You can never tell just what they might carry with them, and the greatest danger may be the least expected.”

Korin turned his eyes toward his friend at the last statement. “Those buildings appear better built than the O’Neill’s abode, and yet you seem to hold them in contempt?” His question was interrupted by a turn of his ankle in one of the many ruts that crisscrossed the roadway. Korin stumbled, and was sure that he would crash to the ground. Ostlen caught him, and with seeming ease corrected his faltering balance. Shaking off the hands even as his companion released him, he felt embarrassment rush through him, and barely quelled an urge to blaspheme. “One wonders that men dare walk horses over such roads as these. I shudder at the wonders of civilization!”

Ostlen gave out a boisterous laugh, as though he had spoken the greatest joke. “I wonder at that as well sometimes, but it is your destination we come to, not mine.” There was humor in his voice, and he seemed not to take offence at Korin’s reaction to his assistance. The fellow appeared willing to anticipate ever misstep of his companion, and to provide such support, as he deemed necessary not matter that the fellow would often refuse such assistance if given the opportunity. “I would hasten to add that two such riders approach us from the east.”

Two sets of eyes turned toward the east, with the hazy sun interfering with their vision. The two riders seemed well appointed. They appeared to be intent on riding through the companions until they were close enough to see Korin’s dress. They slowed then, and appeared to wish avoiding direct contact with them. Korin thought this odd, and wished to question Ostlen about this, but the two were too close to appear so hesitant. Taking a measure of the riders, he struck out with measured determination, as though fully expecting the riders to give leave to his passing. He fixed in his mind the confident stride of his lecturers who were fully aware that any student would give way to their passing. The riders pulled up alongside the roadway, although giving Korin an odd look as he passed.

Something in that scowl, raised hackles in his head, and something made him eye each of the riders in a similar fashion. “Our pardons, good sir, I hope we did not raise too much dust in your midst.” The second rider spoke in a milder tone than Korin expected. “We ride on the Duke’s orders, and did not intend to disturb you.” Something in the manner of his speech suggested that the fellow cared little where Korin was traveling to, or from whence he came, but was impatient to be on his way, and yet not eager to offend one of obvious stature. The first fellow was younger, and had been unable to restrain his arrogance. The only thing holding him from riding Korin down appeared to be his fellow rider.

Ostlen did not speak during this exchange, and Korin caught a glance of his companion’s downcast face as he spoke to the rider. “Your apology is accepted. I travel these roads too rarely to anticipate such missions of great import. Now carry on eye your duke wonders where you have gotten too.” The embarrassment, less the rider comprehend his lack of true stature.

The rider paled visibly, under the eyes of this stranger, who seemed not to care that he was a servant of one close to royalty. Only very few men would be so little concerned about the missions of the ducky, and this one wore the garb suited to one such. “A dozen pardons, Just man, I will hurry out of your way.” The rider looked a command at his companion and the two were off at a gallop. Korin felt the bleed rush to his face as he watched the two of them ride away.

He heard a quiet chuckle from behind him. “I believe that he will recall this encounter all his days.” The humor in Ostlen’s voice did little to ease his embarrassment. “You have a gift, my scholarly friend. Are you certain you were not born to nobility? You have their ways etched in your skin.” Korin shuddered at this statement, and suddenly recalled his arrogant speech to the archivist. He could find no humor in his actions, although he had acted as he suspected he needed to have acted. He could not comprehend his companion’s humor at his actions, or the easy way in which the man had taken that abashed, subservient stance. There had been something far too habitual in it for Korin’s comfort. He had known servants at the Academy who acted just that way whenever in the company of instructors, and then spoke so nastily about them when beyond their sight and hearing.

The two carried on with their journey. When closer to the walls, a number of serious flaws were visible in the lines of the structure, as well as failing mortar that allowed portions to appear jagged. This monument to the local ruler’s power was in sore need of repairs, and Korin had the impression that this had been the case for some time. As he had been told to expect, they were besieged by the vagabonds as they neared the gated. He was not concerned about them, until Ostlen struck one who grasped his shoulder. The fellow staggered a few steps before falling to one knee, and the others sprang back as though they would be next.

“My master does not like to be touched! Be off with you, and pester some as have more time to waste with your pleadings.” The harsh tones were so distinct from those to which he was accustomed to that it took effort not to look at his friend in surprise. The words had their desired effect, although others did approach as the two neared the gatehouse, none were so bold as to reach out to either of them. Their cries for alms were difficult to listen to as Korin could only imagine he would have been among their number if not for the gift he had received. He followed his companion’s lead in staunchly ignoring their please, even coming to the point of ignoring their existence unless they came too close.

Two soldiers lounged at the gate, seeming to have little concern for who entered or left. Korin witnessed a remarkable transformation as one caught sight of the pair striding purposefully toward the gate. He nudged the other, and the two went erect in unison. “Good sirs!” The first bade them welcome in less than formal speech. Korin suspected that the two were among many trained only for this simple duty of securing the gate in times of peace. “Be off with you, rabble!” The command had a similar, if quickly response as Ostlen’s actions moments earlier. They did recognize formal dress, even when road dust grayed it beyond reasonable acceptance. “Pardon the rabble, would that such did not inhabit our domain, but the poor flourish in such places.”

The words touched a chord within him, and he spoke sharply. “The poor abide where they are left. A ruler may be judged by how many such they allow to straggle among their citizenry. The ‘rabble’ are not the dregs of society; so much as, they are evidence of decadence among the rich. Beware of those you stomp upon when you have station, for one knows not when status may be meaningless.” The words cut too close to home for Korin to continues, but they had their intended effect. While the two guards may not heed his warnings, they did recognize that he was dressing them down for word or action. The effect was the same in either case.

“You find rest and peace within the walls of Farsend. There are guardsmen throughout the city, if you have need. A simple call will alert them, and they will be only too happy to assist.” These words were spoken with downcast eyes. The second guard was fidgeting about, desiring to be out of the sight of this newcomer. With a nod of thanks, Korin entered the city, and began a new journey into unknown territory. The two guards visibly shuddered with his passing.

The guard ran into the small hut that housed them when unseasonable weather made standing outside a hardship. Again, he heard a similar chuckle from behind him, barely concealed by a fake cough. Ostlen seemed to find great humor in his companion’s interactions with those accustomed to possessing authority over most. He found it irksome, and yet he could not deny a sense of accomplishment in dressing down these two who took authority too far. He seemed able to ignore other such indiscretions, but those with positions needed to have care that their actions reflected proper concern.

Within the walls, the conditions were no better than they had been outside. If it were possible, the people in view were even more dejected and impoverished. Korin’s heart went out to them, even those who seemed to callously disregard their companions in the rush to garner some respite from their offending lives. Ostlen seemed unable to warn them all off, as the two were besieged by calls for alms and pity. Something about their condition triggered a memory within him, and he was drawn back to an earlier time. He could not be sure, but he suspected that he had seen this sort of scene before; his father’s voice echoed through his mind. “I cannot leave you to this life, my son. I have long been a fool to believe that I could rise above my station, but I have taken the wrong route…”

The voice was cut off by present actions. One of the beggers suddenly leapt out of the mass, and was struck down nearly as quickly by a well-placed strike. The rest of the beggars recoiled from the attack, and Korin was shocked to see a short blade fall from the creature’s grasp as Ostlen kicked him aside. “Make way, my master rewards not thieves, and scoundrels!” The fellow gathered up the fallen blade and tucked it behind his belt in one smooth motion. “You see this blade is forfeit, as is the life of the next to try his luck.” The words seemed to echo among the walls of this broad area, and the beggars fell back in hovering silence.

A thin young fellow went sprinting up a side street, intent on some private mission. Korin found himself impressed at himself, as well as his companion. In all of this, he had maintained his austere bearing, as though this was expected from his sword arm. Personal security was something that he would have to give more thought to in the future, but for now he felt secure in Ostlen’s watchful eyes. There was more to this incident than a mere attack and defense. The beggars would be watchful of this new danger to their trade. It may be that Korin would continue to pity the conditions of the poor, but he would also be less compassionate to their calls for alms. They may well be poor, destitute perhaps, but at least some were willing to take that which was not offered.

The hovels of the peasantry were no match for the filth and destitution of the city. He had been somewhat distressed by his first encounter with the O’Neill’s, not knowing how he would react to their poverty. In contract, they seemed now to have wealth, a wealth that contrasted with the poverty to be found here. Korin now understood the contempt that Ostlen had voiced when speaking of the hovels outside the gates. How was it that people could live in such filth? There were obviously those of greater wealth among the masses that composed the city, and yet they accepted this filth as certainly as did the poor, who had little recourse.

Korin had to walk carefully, which posed as something of a challenge for one attempting to retain an austere bearing, in order to avoid stepping in the most obvious filth. The troubling thoughts of how people bore this life of open filth has to be set aside while they made their way along one of the main streets. It’s east-west direction was impaired occasionally by an awning stretched too far into the street, or some building whose front required a detour to allow passage along the route. Ostlen spoke little, except to caution about this place of concealment or that. He seemed almost totally occupied with their personal security, a concern that both comforted Korin, and disturbed him at the same time.

They happened upon a shop that offered antiques and collectibles for trade, and Korin thought of his small purse tucked behind his belt since their encounter at the gate. He spoke quietly, and indicated the awning of the humble shop. Ostlen nodded his agreement, and the two entered the shop. Korin was unsure of what to expect from such a place, and given the lack of care he had encountered in the street, was surprised that the interior appeared warm and inviting. There was an obvious clutter of equipment and items for sale, but otherwise the place seemed well appointed, if somewhat humble.

The proprietor looked up from an intricate little case that he was examining. “Welcome to Oran’s Wares.” He said quickly, as though it had been said over much, and was now simply routine. His eyes widened with an awareness of the sort who chose to enter his establishment. “Good sirs, how may I be of assistance? I am but a humble shopkeeper, and I am honored that you choose to frequent my business.” His voice held a new quality that had not been in his initial greeting.

It was a measure of how many times Korin had experienced this change in temperament that he barely acknowledged the change. “I come seeking value for a few coins that have fallen into my possession. I assume that one, such as yourself, who deals with rare finds would understand the value of such things.” He had no idea if this was the best way to handle his needs, but had little choice but to request the aid he sought. Ostlen offered neither encouragement, nor refutation, so he carried on with his request. “I have a few coins that are of significant value, if marketed in the correct circles. Would you take a look at them, and give me your best price?” He procured his purse as he spoke, and ignored the sharp intake of breath that suggested he might be erring. Ostlen had complete faith, in defending his life, and protecting their possessions.

The shopkeeper’s eyes widened when his eyes fell on the ancient coins. “I am certain that you are correct in estimating their value, but I do not believe that I can offer a fair price for such things.” There was no hidden meaning in his words, although Korin found the statement preposterous. He had to admit that he know little of such things, and had to rely on the knowledge of this shopkeeper, or another such.

“What is this? Can you not offer an honest statement? We come here for trade, and you claim to market such goods. Offer us a price, and as my master has said, we will be on our way.” Ostlen was not so cautious, not so forgiving, as Korin would have been. It was possible, that the fellow would simply turn them out into the street, to find some other way to trade the coins.

“I mean no disrespect!” The shopkeeper hurriedly said. “My humble goods do not provide the sort of income to purchase so many valuable items. I could offer you my savings on the silver coins, but I would not be able to do more until I have found a buyer for such items.”

Korin noted the fellow’s posture, and believed he was telling the truth, as incredible as that might seem. “I will not be in the city long, for we have a distance to travel. How much could you offer for the silver coin?”

The shopkeeper visibly calmed with Korin’s reply. Had he really believed that his companion could mean any harm to his person or shop? “I can offer you fifty gold for the silver, and if you can delay travel for a day or two, I may be able to do more. It is not quite what it’s worth, but it is all I have.” A little of the trader come into his voice at the end, but only with regard to acknowledging the higher value of the single coin.

Korin was careful to control his expressions, in case his surprise would be revealed. He had not expected quite this much from the silver, an would have accepted half as much, but there was no point to telling this stranger that he was shocked at the value. “I may be able to stay a couple days, if I can find suitable quarters for myself and my companion. My journey is timely, but not an urgent one.” He had to give this man something for his efforts, and the offer of more profit was the least he could do.

“I can suggest a couple clean and well appointed places where you might find rest and comfort. Someone of your stature would require a minimum of privacy and comfort, so I would suggest the Eagle’s Nest located on Gauvin’s Way, a short walk from here.” The shopkeeper had moved from being the hospitable host, to being a helpful confident, and Korin was not sure he was comfortable with the change.

Korin indicated the intricate case with which the man had been occupied when he entered the shop. “How much would you ask for that item?” He spoke with intent to throw the fellow off a little, because he did not wish the man to become too familiar. Something about the item intrigues him, and he thought it would be interesting to examine.

The shopkeeper glanced down at the item where it lay on his counter. “I have no certain price as of yet, for I have been unable to open it.” He seemed to be shaken from Korin’s interest, but willing to carry on nonetheless. “I would be willing to throw it into the bargain, if you will but delay your travel for a day or two. A man such as me has few chances to garner items of real value with which to trade, and I would be in your debt truly, if you would do me this honor.” There was something about his manner that seemed off, but Korin nodded his agreement, and was rewarded with the procurement of a small purse that jingled with it’s contents. “You may count again, if you doubt my word, but there are fifty gold coins in that sack; my savings that I have counted a number of times.”

Korin took the purse, as well as the three coins the shopkeeper was unable to purchase. He tucked the latter back behind his belt, and held the other out to Ostlen who looked taken aback by the offer. The wooden case, he chose to carry himself, although he did wrap it in a fold of his cloak. The shopkeeper bade them good day, and they stepped back into the street, with Korin taking the lead in the direction that the shopkeeper had indicated lay an inn of “appropriate stature”. He was not sure that he liked the reactions of people to his dress, but it was something that would assist him at this point.

“I’m not certain we should take his suggestion for a place to rest.” Ostlen said as soon as we were far enough from the door to speak quietly without being heard. “I do not know that the fellow cannot be trusted, but I do not like anyone, who knows of the treasure you possess, knowing where you sleep.” His caution was as much a part of him as the blade strapped to his hip, and Korin felt it necessary to give his words consideration. The incident at the gate had given him reason to be distrustful of all those he met, so Korin thought for a long moment before replying.

The two young men strode along purposefully, giving little attention to their surroundings, or so it seemed. Korin found that his trained mind had adapted to scanning the street in advance of their passage. “There is someone standing in the shadow of the awning on the right.” He whispered, and was rewarded by a sharp intake of breath coming from Ostlen. The young fellow had not expected Korin to be paying close attention to the street, and was surprised by the scholar’s eyesight. They had reached the entrance to Gauvin’s Way, according to the faded signage. “I trust in your judgement, my friend.” Korin spoke quietly, as he paused to consider their next move. “I do not believe that the shopkeeper wished to know where we stayed, but he seemed too occupied with the possibility of profit to have contemplated anything else. The ultimate choice is yours.”

“The fellow by the awning is moving off, but he seems too curious by a half.” Ostlen spoke near whispers, and Korin resisted the urge to turn his head. “We will need to have caution no matter where we stop, and the fellow did have cause to wish us well. I got the feeling that your coins are worth far more than he was offering.” The last was added as they began to separate, beginning the journey to the inn of which they had been told.

Korin could not deny that the shopkeeper was probably making a goodly profit from trading the coins. He had seemed too eager for the service, but Korin did not have the time, or the resources to seek out those who collected such things himself. He supposed that was the nature of business, charging a fee for services rendered. His companion was all the security he had in the world, until he was able to learn a few skills of his own, so he would garner what coin he could, and prepare himself for the trails ahead.

The hundred yards or so to the inn were covered in silence. Each of the companions was alone with his thoughts. The time in the shop had seen the sun come around to the west, and there were long shadows on the left hand side of the street. Korin walked carefully, avoiding the abundant filth that seemed to nearly cover the street surface. The most difficult part of this walk was maintaining his appearance of austerity, while trying not to slip in the filth. A few times, he nearly lost his footing, and each time he was aware that hands hovered near enough to catch him before falling. Korin managed the task on his own, and was confused by his elated sense of accomplishment. No one should feel proud to have walked two hundred steps without stumbling.

The awning before the inn was well appointed, and bore the image of a large bird coming to rest on a field of blue. Korin was surprised to see a wide alley open before they reached the establishment. In the afternoon lights, he could see that this alley ended in a semi-detached building, which appeared to be used to house the mounts of the inn’s patrons. The shopkeeper had not led them astray in his suggestion, for there was a level of wealth required to possess mounts of one’s own. “Remember, you are the master, and I am the servant.” Ostlen spoke in a whisper, as he stepped past him to reach the door first.

This manner of assuming his station seemed not to bother Ostlen, so Korin felt it necessary to accept it as proper. The fellow opened the door, and Korin preceded him into the common room. There was much that he did not know of human society, and he was willing to accept his companion’s direction for the time being. The interior of the establishment appeared to him to be well cared after, being both clean and busy even at this hour before the evening meal would be served. Korin made his way through the tables to the counter, behind which a fellow stood scouring the room.

Korin draw the attention of the fellow before he had time to reach the counter edge. “May I be of service, good sirs?” His voice seemed not to hold the same recognition that the shopkeeper had shown, and yet one might assume the man had met a wider variety of citizens than had the shopkeeper. “A room for the night, or a meal and a mug of ale?” The man assumed his job quite reasonably.

“A room for myself, and my manservant.” Korin spoke with the feigned ease of one used to command. “After we have settled, a meal and some good wine, if you have such?” Korin looked the question as his host, and was pleased that the fellow looked abashed.

“We provide a variety of wines to our patrons, good sir.” He reached beneath the counter top and retrieved what appeared to be a room key. “We have but two large rooms, but one is presently available. I charge a silver coin per night for the room, and another for the meal.” Korin turned to Ostlen, who was retrieving the sack he had hidden somewhere on his person.

“I will take the room for three nights, and we shall see about the meals after we have rested.” Korin spoke with the learned arrogance of one used to command. “I am weary from the road, and wish time to get refreshed.”

“I will have water taken to your room immediately.” The man seemed only now to take note of the crest over his right breast, and his demeanor changed to one more subservient. As accustomed as he was becoming to people’s reaction to his attire, there was still some mystery as to why the regular citizenry would hold the Academy in such high esteem. Korin had known that theirs was a position of honor at the Academy, but he was bewildered by the aver person’s reaction to one wearing the cloak of a Justice. In their element, it was assumed that they would hold positions of great honor, but what role did they play in the realm that afforded such high regard among the citizenry.

Ostlen took lead up the stairs, and Korin followed along as he assumed was expected. The room was well appointed, possessing a large bed for the “master” and a small, yet comfortable cot for the servant. There was a large wardrobe for the storage of unworn clothing, and a bedside table with a ready drawer for personal effects. The smallish table was appointed with four matching chairs, and appeared designed for use in dining as well as writing. It even possessed a small portal to house an inkwell on the side nearest the wall. All in all, it seemed comfortable enough to service their needs, and provide the appearance of status that was needed for their circumstances.

“We have some other needs that you may not have considered.” Ostlen spoke while Korin was removing his cloak, in preparation for putting the bed to good use. “You will need a couple changes of clothes, and I suspect I should wear some form of livery.” His ever-practical companion was again pointing out issues that Korin would have over-looked for the moment. “We have coin, and a little time before businesses close for the day, so I suggest that I go out and see if we cannot put that time to good use.”

A purposeful rap at the door interrupted their conversation. Ostlen immediately called for the person to enter, and the door opened to reveal a young serving girl bearing a basin of steaming water. He eyes swept the room, searching for a place to set her burden down. Korin indicated the table, and the young woman hurriedly proceeded across the floor to release her charge. “Be careful you do not scald yourself, sir.” The last word came out hesitantly, as though she was uncomfortable with the term.

“My master thanks you, now be off while he cleans up from the road.” Ostlen ushered the young lady out the door as he spoke. Having closed the door, he turned to his companion with an odd smile on his face. “Me thinks the young lady favored you!” He spoke with an emphasis on the last word, and Korin felt heat rising in his face. He had not noticed anything out of the ordinary, so he was confused by the statement.

“I am sure she was just anxious about meeting one of my supposed status. Everyone seems to have odd reactions to meeting me.” Korin felt the flush of embarrassment, due to Ostlen’s comment. He had no experience with such things. There had been little contact with women at the Academy, and then only aged serving woman who performed a variety of cleaning duties. There had been little or no contact with the outside world during his stay and the instructors were little concerned with such matters themselves, having wedded themselves to their duties.

The smile did not leave Ostlen’s face, but he controlled it so as to avoid placing more strain on his friend. “That may be, but she very nearly forgot to address you properly.” Korin tried to control his reaction, and his friend came back to the matter being discussed before the interruption. “If you have no objection, I will collect your clothes and be off on my errands.” He did not leave the statement open to objection. “I think it best that I lock up as I’m leaving and leave orders that you not be disturbed while I am gone.”

Korin nodded his agreement. He realized suddenly that Ostlen was waiting for him to undress. It was foolish to feel modest at such a time, but he was not accustomed to companions. He set about the task, with a feigned casualness that his friend simply accepted. Korin assumed that he would grow accustomed to this role with time, but he hoped that his companion did not expect him to carry on this charade over long. The suggestion that he accept servants as a part of his day-to-day life was something he could not bear to contemplate.

Ostlen gathered up his clothing, and gave his companion an odd look before turning toward the door. “I will return in a short while with this outfit brushed and measured. Do not answer the door for any reason.” His sense of warning, he stepped to the door, opened it, and stepped out. Korin heard the latch turn as his friend locked up behind him, and then he was alone.

He set about the task of cleaning himself a little before laying down for some needed rest. His mind stayed quiet for the few minutes it took to clean dust from his face and hair. While he used the proffered cloth to run the hot water over his arms and chest, his mind began to trace the path that had led him here. He could not maintain a grasp on the random events that had directed him to this inn, so he found himself wondering what had caused events to fall in the order that they had. Fate was not something he was unaccustomed to debating, but he had usually favoured the side of refuting it’s role in the lives of men, so it was unusual for him to be contemplating a different position as it related to him. Having finished his rudimentary effort, he crawled into the bed, and lay down with his mind still occupied with concerns for his next step, and oddly, the refined shape of a young lady’s cheekbone.

Korin started from his sleep what seemed like only moments later, to a darkened room. The room was so dark he could barely make out the shadows of it’s sparse furnishings. He had a sense of being watched, or of not being alone. He rolled over, and sat up to orient himself properly. “You sleep soundly, my friend, if not so quietly.” Ostlen’s dry chuckle, from his place on the cot, frightened him enough that he had to catch himself halfway out of his bed. He barely withheld a muttered curse, as he settled back onto the bedside.

“Do you enjoy sitting in the dark, or do you do this simply to startle me?” His sense of humor could not allow him to be angry, but he dearly wished to get the better of his friend occasionally. “Is it possible for you to light a lamp, a candle, or some such. I can barely make you out in the dark.” Korin was not really upset with being startled, and felt a pang of guilt at displaying his frustration in this manner.

“Is that better, Master?” Ostlen could not conceal his humor at Korin’s attitude, but he was more than happy to point it out to him. A small lamp gave off a fair amount of light in the small area. Korin did not speak for a moment while he watched his companion walk across the floor to a second, larger lamp attached to the wall above the table. “I was able to purchase a couple shirts suited to match your outfit, so you’ll have a fresh shirt to wear down stairs.” He pointed at the foot of the bed as he spoke, and Korin saw there were several items laid out there. The fellow may not be accustomed to such garb, but he knew something of the care needed to keep it presentable.

“I thank you for running those errands.” Korin spoke more calmly this time. “I have no right to speak to you in such a manner, and I do apologize.” Ostlen seemed shocked at his honesty, and shrugged his indifference. “How long have you been sitting here in the dark?”

The fellow smiled at the question. “I have only been here a few moments, and suspect that my entrance disturbed your sleep. You made no racket here either; I was merely poking fun, and it could be that I go too far sometimes. You are coping well with the experiences you have gone through these last few das. I know not what you left behind, but I expect it was not pleasant.” Korin was not companion about the events of the last two days. He was unsure if it was his shame that prevented it, or his belief that Ostlen could not understand. He suspected that he told himself the latter only so that he could excuse the shame he felt over his treatment of a friend.

“I suppose, I could very well have taken my clothing myself.” Korin spoke as he moved to begin dressing, giving only the slightest hint that he was poking fun at the fellow for taking issue with his assumed status. “I thank you for the assistance you have provided, and hope the meals taste as well as they smell.” He made short work of dressing, and hung the other two shirts in the wardrobe where he found hangers enough to hold a dozen outfits. He took small pleasure in the look of surprise on Ostlen’s face when he opened the mirror to stow away his belongings. When he completed his task, he strode toward the door, catching himself brushing away a nonexistent wrinkle in his new shirt.

He was surprised to see what shocked Ostlen, and what did not. He suspected that if he went down to the common room and caused a conflict, the fellow would calmly break it up as though there has been nothing unusual, but not knowing that a wardrobe was used to hang clothing so they would not be wrinkled shook him. The pair descended the stairs, and entered the still busy common room. Most of the patrons were finished with their evening meal, and taking their ease with drinks. There was a different man at the serving counter, than had been there when they came in, but apparently, he had been made aware of Korin’s status, for he quickly called a serving girl to find them a well-appointed table.

The young lady who came out was unfamiliar to them, and Korin felt a pang of regret. He tried to shake off this foolish fascination with an unknown young woman, who had simply performed her duties and been polite. He consciously cursed his own foolishness, and held a little for his friend who had placed the idea in his head. The table they were taken to was not exceptional in any way, and he was hard pressed to refrain from commenting. Looking about the chamber, he saw that the furniture was all similar if it identical.

“What can I get you this evening?” The young lady asked as soon as they were seated. “I am told the meals are already paid for as are a couple of drinks.” The last sounded somewhat disappointed, although Korin could not understand the reason. “We have some fresh lamb. as well as beef and fowl.” Korin was not displeased with her service, so much as able to note the boredom in repeating what must be said a few dozen times a night.

“If it is not too much trouble, I would like to sample a variety this evening.” Korin was not accustomed to this sort of thing, and felt out of place. “I would like wine with my meal, red if you have any, and gt my man here what ever he desires as well.” This statement brought a sharp intake of breath from his companion, and a startled look from the serving woman. Even if it were inappropriate for him to order a meal or a drink for his companion, he would do it just the same. He could make some exceptions for appearances, but his companion would not want while he ate.

The woman walked away from the table, and Ostlen shook his head ruefully. “An ale would have been sufficient, Master, and would have created less gossip amongst the help.” His companion had a bland look on his face, looking every bit the doting servant, but his eyes held a firmness that spoke volumes. Some unusual activity caught Ostlen’s attention, and he glanced toward the serving counter. “Apparently, you created a stir amongst the help already, and I suspect impressed a fan.” The amused look on his face was similar enough that Korin did not need look up to know his meaning.

He felt a sense of exhilaration course through him, and felt foolish about it. Korin was attempting to act the part of a sophisticated man of letters, and it would not do for him to act over the young woman he met. He suspected that he would meet many women now that he had left behind his austere life, for the world of men. “I am unfamiliar with such things. There were no choices of meals at the Academy, nor selections of drink. If I error, it is out of ignorance.”

Ostlen looked at him with wonderment. “I should have given you more information.” He whispered this so that none could hear, and a little louder said. “I believe she was surprised by your request for a variety of meats, as she was by the request for wine. It is not often they encounter a gentleman with taste.” The last was said with good humor, and Korin felt himself relax a little, though he wondered if his friend did not poke fun at him with the use of titles.

The young lady who had brought water to his room came bearing a flask of wine, and two matching glasses. “The kitchen is a flutter with talk of the lordling who buys wine for his servant.” she said in amused tones while she placed the bottle and glasses on the table. “Would you like me to pour, sir, or do you prefer to have your companion do so?” She spoke formally, yet Korin detected another questioning glance from this unusual person.

“I believe that I am capable of pouring my own drink, although you may do so if you like.” He knew this time that both his companion and the serving woman would be taken aback, but he wished not to be the butt of yet another joke later in the evening. He was rewarded with widened eyes staring down at him, and the, now familiar, sharp intake of breath from Ostlen. Korin could not help but smile a little this time, as he had anticipated the reactions he received.

“My master meant no disrespect; I assure you.” Ostlen spoke in an attempt to cover yet another of his blunders. It did not seem to matter what he id this day; he could not seem to act in the way he intended. His face must have confirmed his companion’s words, for the young lady calmed visibly, before curtsying and stepping away from the table. This time he did not restrain the desire to blaspheme, and received another odd look from his companion.

Korin took a drink of his wine, but he lost the desire necessary to enjoy it’s body and flavor. The two sat in silence until the meal was served. He was gratified to see that the young woman had chosen to return, rather than send someone else. She did not speak, though, and went about duties professionally, before retreating to the back. They ate in silence then, as Korin avoided speaking through out their meal. He seemed to have done enough speaking for one day it seemed.

They had nearly finished their meal when the young lady returned, and offered to refill their glasses. Korin did not look up, feeling foolish, and wishing he had words that could explain his actions. Ostlen must have indicated to do so for she went about the task quietly. “Was there anything else I could gt for you, Sir?” He was somewhat dismayed that she had directed the question, so that he had little choice but to respond.

“I believe that we are content, and my thanks.” He tried to avoid meeting her eyes; as he feared that his feelings would be visible in his eyes. He failed to do so, and their eyes locked for a moment, before she curtsied and turned away. “I was not offended, by word or deed, my lady, and I am sorry you misunderstood.” Her head snapped back to stare at him a brief moment, and then she continued on her way.

Ostlen gave a brief sign, and did nothing to conceal the smile that had appeared on his face. “You make it difficult to predict the next moment, my friend.” He said in a whisper, for none but Korin to hear. “That young lady does not know what to think of you now. I know you speak from the heart, and did not doubt about the apology when I gave it, but this makes her wonder at you once more. A man of some status who buys wine for his servant, and takes the time to apologize to a serving girl who was too forward by a league.” Ostlen took a sip of his wine, and made a face that suggested it was not to his liking. “You do realize that she was embarrassed, and not offended.” He spoke as though pointing out the obvious, and smiled again at the expression on Korin’s mystified face.

“I did not feel that she was forward at all. I am not ever sure what it was that I said that garnered the reaction I received.” Korin spoke quietly as well, and was more annoyed by the amused expression on Ostlen’s face. “I sometimes believe that I should refrain from speaking altogether. I seem unable to make sense of any of this formality.”

“That much is clear, Master, but I do not believe that we could explain away your lack of speech.” His amusement did not detract from Korin’s discomfort, and he wished he could simply leave the room without making yet another scene. He wished that he did not feel the leap of exhilaration when she walked into the room. Thankfully, the rest of the evening passed without further incident, mostly due to Korin not speaking again. He had the impression that the young lady was measuring him, trying to ascertain the person who did such disparate things, and he was unable to even respond.